劇評｜《好想做一次》：治癒傷痛的人，一定包含你自己

看完《Never Have I Ever》第四季的瞬間，宛若跟 Devi（Maitreyi Ramakrishnan飾演）一起長大了一回。遙想曾經的青春，誰都有說不出口的傷痛、想要完成的使命，和那些明知道會被討厭仍一意孤行的時刻。這些種種缺陷，皆都成為與這部劇帶來強大共感的緣由。

懷念過去、懷念某個喜歡的人、懷念我們的夢想、懷念沒有與家人說開和解的悔悟，又懷念起某些與他/她共度的特別歲月。

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《Never Have I Ever》為青春愛情喜劇，以印度裔少女 Devi 作為主角，闡述著圍繞在她身邊的親情、友情、愛情，搞笑之餘，真摯的淚水不禁盡收眼底。好比 Devi 和媽媽 Dr. Nalini Vishwakumar （Poorna Jagannathan 飾演）五味雜陳的對手戲是我相當喜愛的片段，她們之間的戰局看似一觸即發，實則藏有滿滿真摯的愛。而一開始有些畏懼表達情感的兩人，從衝破僵局、互相理解，再到擁抱對方，都真實呈現了母女會有的樣態，一來一往之間也不禁令我們心裡湧上一股暖流。

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除了母女之情，Devi 的心理醫生Devi 的心理醫生 Dr. Jamie Ryan（Niecy Nash 飾演）總能將我們原本堅定不已的桎梏有了更多轉化的可能。她告訴 Devi，不能讓別人定義你、自尊心很重要，因為當那麼做時，就宛如將自身原有的力量交到別人手中；她告訴 Devi，她其實是一位感受豐富、容易受傷的少女，但也因為這樣，肯定會擁有相當美麗動人的人生；她告訴 Devi，不要把自己鎖在特定的夢想，因為那樣反倒限制了人生軌跡、畫地自限，必須試著敞開心扉。

每一句話都宛如箴言，更帶出了 Devi 的習題，或許也是我們人生會有的課題。而 Devi 也在不斷觸發的事件中，從一個自我的憤怒少女，轉變成懂得控制脾氣、不再過度在意他人眼光、會主動承認過錯、勇敢直視創傷的女高中生。等著她的，肯定不會事事一帆風順，但帶領她成長的這些信念必定有發揮作用的一天。

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此外，這齣戲也有許多富有魅力的角色，好比從 Eleanor 身上看見了不要放棄夢想，換一條路也能是夢的決心與勇氣（她跟 Trent 也好可愛哈哈）；從 Fabiola 身上看見了酷兒的自我認同、勇於追愛的勇氣；從 Ben 身上看見了放下既有的完美堅持、放鬆的美學，以及尊重他人的重要之處；從 Paxton 身上看見告別的勇氣、釋懷的大氣，已經換條路也能是夢想的勇氣；當然，美麗的表姊 Kamala 也引領我們看見了成熟女孩的睿智以及魅力，就像 Devi 說的，她真的是很棒的表姊。最後，身為網球迷，John McEnroe 超有趣的旁白也絕對替本劇增色了不少，幽默真的有夠味。

至於很多人關心的感情線……我個人是沒有那麼在意🤣畢竟這部劇在我眼中就是一個美麗的成長本色。要知道 Devi 最後究竟跟誰走到最後，大家趕快去追完第四季就知道了！

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《 Never Have I Ever 》: Everyone has a chance to heal themselves.

It's a touching, adorable, vigorous story for me. Lift a lot of stress off my shoulder. I took a trip down memory lane, missed all of my friends and dreams when I was a teenager. Time fleeting so fast, but as Devi as we are, experienced phobia for something, felt shame of ourselves, resisted our parents, definitely wanted to shine and fit into a group. We are not confident, held uncomfortable on everything, even the culture(this drama dig into difference of the culture as well, because Devi are Asian India).

At this point, self-acceptance will be helpful. Everyone come across sorrow and mistake, even doctor fallible like everyone else. So, why don't we try to be attentive to ourselves? Set aside "out of league" away from us? Because you are the only one who can root for yourself, and accept that they are not "immaculate" to survive in the world.

If you think you are getting stuck in something, looking around you, maybe the best way is to say something to your significant other, give them a sincere thought and hug. After that, perhaps we can find the beauty of forgiveness, full of longing and love.

"Don't defy other people's expectations of you."Devi finds herself, knows more about love, relationships, and understands what "brought up" is. Reflecting us,also be so grateful to have this journey with all of the cutiest person in the series.

《Never Have I Ever 》 season 4 (last season) is on Netflix right now!

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