Alyson’s 5/16 Tarot：憤怒 Anger (48-57)
問題：我5/15的未來日記主題
抽牌：憤怒 Anger
今天，就如同一般日常，認真努力學習，休息時間站起身，喝點水，休息一下。
有什麼憤怒的事情發生嗎？
除了凌晨無法順利入眠，且眩暈又發作以外，沒有其他特別的不同。
憤怒，是我非常熟悉的情感和情緒的其中一種。
過往長久的時光裡，因較真，因比較，因計較，讓自己像是生活在炸藥庫裡，隨時園地爆炸，誰點炸誰，沒人點火，也因自己易燃自炸。
氣憤，生氣，不甘，不堪，常在我心頭裡繞。
繞得我眼盲，耳聾，不識人，識不清人。
我把人當寶，人把我當草。
我把人捧在掌心疼，人把我踩在腳底，沒人疼。
沒被看見。
說實了，就是自己沒入任何人的眼。
即使我使命地吹著號角，響徹雲霄。
裝睡的人，聽也聽不見。
長久累積的情緒，一觸就燃，炸了。
炸得粉身碎骨，炸得支離破碎，炸得痛徹心扉，炸得愁雲慘霧。
站在毀損破磚殘瓦的土堆上，我喊著，只要有人讓我覺得心情不舒服，我就讓
全部的人一起不舒服。
這些是昔日我的憤怒的展現。
今日，沒有呀。
情緒的起伏只有當趕不上課程時，微微皺了眉頭。
其他時候，就是可以，還可以，不錯。
『憤怒』 ~
情緒像玻璃杯，那般脆弱。
遇熱，手無法舉唄。
遇冷，越冷越炸裂。
憤怒是血紅色的，猙獰的大口，張揚舞爪地想用牙齒狠狠地撕咬對方。
憤怒讓人張揚過了頭，咄咄逼人了。
憤怒像是生氣的河豚，全身是刺，身體內部同時也產生了毒素。
憤怒，傷人，亦傷己身。
可能，今日有些事情，若是過去的我，已會不開心了。
今日的我，沒那麼敏感，沒那麼脆弱，沒那麼尖銳，沒那麼易怒，所以，沒事。
今天，不符合「未來日記」的塔羅抽牌預測。
可，開心，沒有事情需要發火、生氣，甚至還嚴重到憤怒，是值得原地站起，轉圈，灑花得。
Question: The theme of my future diary for 5/15
Card Drawn: Anger
Today, just like any other day, I diligently studied, stood up during breaks, drank some water, and rested a bit. Did anything angering happen? Other than not being able to fall asleep smoothly early in the morning and experiencing dizziness again, nothing particularly different happened.
Anger is one of the emotions and feelings I am very familiar with. In the long past, due to being serious, comparing, and calculating, I felt like living in a powder keg, ready to explode at any moment. Anyone could light the fuse, and even if no one did, I would ignite it myself because of my flammable nature.
Resentment, anger, unwillingness, and intolerance often swirled in my heart.
These feelings blinded me, deafened me, and made me unable to recognize people clearly.
I treated people as treasures while they treated me like grass.
I held people in the palm of my hand, cherishing them, but they trampled on me without care.
I was unseen.
To put it bluntly, I was unnoticed by anyone.
Even if I blew my horn loudly, it went unheard by those pretending to sleep. Long-accumulated emotions ignited easily, causing explosions.
Explosions that left me shattered, fragmented, deeply hurt, and surrounded by sorrow.
Standing on the debris of destruction, I shouted, if someone made me feel uncomfortable, I would make everyone uncomfortable.
This was how my anger manifested in the past.
Today, however, there was none of that. The only emotional fluctuation was a slight frown when I couldn't keep up with the lesson. Other than that, it was okay, still okay, not bad.
Anger ~
Emotions are like a glass cup, so fragile.
When heated, it’s hard to hold.
When cold, the colder it gets, the more it shatters.
Anger is blood-red, with a ferocious mouth, aggressively showing its claws, wanting to bite the other fiercely.
Anger makes people overextend, becoming overbearing.
Anger is like an angry pufferfish, covered in spikes, and its body generates toxins simultaneously.
Anger harms others and also oneself.
Perhaps today, some things that would have upset the old me didn't affect me. Today, I am not as sensitive, not as fragile, not as sharp, not as easily angered, so nothing happened.
Today, the Tarot card draw prediction of "Anger" does not match the reality of my future diary. But this is a cause for happiness. Not having anything that needs me to get angry, even severely angry, is worth standing up, spinning around, and scattering flowers for.
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