<div class="draft-block draft--p left">2024.5.2</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">Cynthia insights</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">神-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">觀點異於人類的神</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">行新事的神</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">願意用最痛的代價</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">來拯救我們的神</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">人-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">每個人的觀點不同，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">所追求的目的就不同。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">會有紛爭、互為絆腳石，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就是用這個層級的角度去爭奪，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但若跳脫人的眼光，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">用神的層級去思考去看，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">一切就可以很不同。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">罪沒有除去</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">無法得著生命</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">基督徒很幸福</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">藉著耶穌十架的救贖</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">操練順服與懺悔</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">罪就除去了</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">生命也重新得著</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">陳老師說得很對</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">生命真的有不同的狀態！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">有螻蟻茫目的求生、</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">能夠脫離固著得到新方向、</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">自由、健康、沒有老我，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">謝謝陳老師的提醒，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我更堅定，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">追求更好的生存狀態。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">生命實質的改變</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">對我而言就是透過禱告</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">來轉念</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我是家族的第一代基督徒</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">家裡信仰是傳統的道佛教</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">算命、紫微斗數是日常</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">家裡老人都說我</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">文昌化忌坐命</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">所以很聰明有才華</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但是沒有功名</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這影響我很大</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">那年聯考</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我刻意擺爛拒絕考試</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">20年過去了</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這個殘念一直很扎心</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">後來有建蒲的支持和幫助</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我重回校園學習</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在寫碩士論文的時候</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">幼時的紫微斗數的咒詛</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">卻一直干擾我</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">「你不可能、你沒辦法的、你沒功名、像陀螺一樣辛苦的轉卻徒勞無功⋯⋯」</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">那時候好辛苦啊</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就最後一哩路了</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但我就跨不過去</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">還好那時候</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我再次的遇到基督</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">祂透過「豐盛的人生」告訴我</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">祂是愛我的</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">所有的勞苦重擔</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">可以交託他手上</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">後來我試著禱告</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">來阻擋那些咒詛的聲音</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">順利的完成論文取得碩士學位</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感恩-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">主啊，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">謝謝祢的捨身。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">祢是無罪之身的，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但是卻選擇了</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">世人看為愚拙的十字架</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">來救贖我們。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">為的就是幫助我們</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">洗去我們的罪，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我們潔淨，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">能夠親近神。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">謝謝祢讓我明白，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">凡人是無法用自己身的</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">智慧、能力，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">來成就些什麼，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">因為我們總是有</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">老我的固著阻礙著。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">謝謝祢，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">透過聖靈來幫助我們，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我可以放下自己，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">真實仰望十字架的真理。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">祈求祢持續的幫助，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">透過C3靈修</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我們的生命能得到轉化，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">能夠更明白主的心意，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">活出聖潔、</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">透過生命的改變傳福音</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">奉主耶穌基督的名求，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">阿們。</div>

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智慧與愚拙的轉換：十字架的力量（林前一18-25）

<div class="draft-block draft--p left">2024.5.1</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">Cynthia’s Insights</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">神-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">充滿慈愛良善的神</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">包容力超級大的神</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">人-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我看到保羅的真誠</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">哥林多教會是保羅所創的</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">當他在處理教會中的衝突時</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">他是拉下身段、撇下人的驕傲</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">去勸勉弟兄們</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">往著合一的方向修正</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">今天陳老師一開頭的財道講解</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我醍醐灌頂</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在財務上我有許多障礙</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">也一直在思考著世界貧富的狀態</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">「太 初 有 道 ， 道 與 神 同 在 ， 道 就 是 神 。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這 道 太 初 與 神 同 在 。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">萬 物 是 藉 著 他 造 的 ； 凡 被 造 的 ， 沒 有 一 樣 不 是 藉 著 他 造 的 。」</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這讓我看到</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">自己過往生命中</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">失敗的原因是什麼</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">而豐盛的秘就在這！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我另一個得著是</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">「團結、合一」</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這給了我檢視的機會</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">以前我在組建團隊時</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">不太能放下身段</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">總是有偶包的</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">然後很常的忘記愛和包容</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">很容易陷入</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就是夥伴不夠配合之類的批判當中</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">然後就落入的互相責備中</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">更遑論有共同目標這回事了</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">透過保羅的哥林多教會</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我切確的重新認知</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">團隊是每一個成員的</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">目標也是</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">每一個人都代表著身體的某一部分</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">都得對焦目標（頭）一同運作</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就像我想早起C3靈修</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但身體會想偷懶</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">會有不乖的時候</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這時候壓制、強迫、批判</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">是無法讓身體配合的</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">而是透過和身體的溝通、調整作息時間</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">並且定睛在靈糧的領受（目標）</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">才能讓我在早起靈修操練的時候</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">有好的狀態去吸收嗎哪</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">親愛的天父</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">真的很感謝祢讓我遇見C3</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">因為早起靈修</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我看到了過往失敗的點</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">也因著祢的慈愛</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我願意改變並奉上自己</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">為祢成為世上的鹽</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">耶穌聖靈</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝祢的同在</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這一週的靈修操練</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我與先生的餐桌上</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">帶入更多的交流</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">不再只是冷冰冰的科技冷漠</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">阿們</div>
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在基督裏的合一——超越派別的呼召（林前一10-17）

<div class="draft-block draft--p left">2024.4.30</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">Cynthia’s Insights</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">神-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我看到的神是</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">必拯救到底的神</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">人-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我看到保羅的行事</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我覺得這些以身作則的門徒也很偉大</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">撇掉自己的固著想法</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">轉念用神的眼光</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">來面對處理哥林多教會的人事物</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這篇的教誨</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我的心變得更加的柔軟</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我知道神愛我</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">不是因為我完美</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就單純地只是祂愛著我</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">原本我也是個固著的人</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">生活中很多到稜稜角角</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">花了很長的一段時間</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">才慢慢地學會轉念</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">現在更加明瞭</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">有一位這麼愛我的神</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">給了我與耶穌相同的位份</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">有了這樣的身分</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">何需再去計較</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">世界裡的那些不成熟的生命狀態引發出來的問題呢</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">以人的眼光角度</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">是無法去包容</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這些人性的弱點的</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">成聖的路途</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就是定睛在神的美好樣態上</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">往更好的自己邁進</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這是神所應許的</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">神希望我活的像祂</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">而不是一直活在下行當中</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這篇也教會我</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">要相信</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">相信神所應許給我的美好</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我要在生活中</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">增強對神的信任感</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">單單的信靠</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">定睛這點</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">持續的前行</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">親愛的阿爸父</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">真的很感恩祢的安排</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在C3靈修的日子裡</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我感受到我兩年多來</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">乾渴的靈命開始生長</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感恩讚美祢所安排的一切</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我相信這一切</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">都是要讓我遇見更好的自己</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">親愛的聖靈</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">謝謝祢的同在，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在我被老我綑綁時，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">適時的打開我的眼、</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">打開我的耳朵、</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">並軟化我的心思意念，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">順服的去學習。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">親愛的耶穌</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝祢的身教，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">千年之前祢用以身作則，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">呼召了那麼多位的聖徒，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">來將阿爸父的旨意行在地上。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">請祢持續的帶領，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">持續的看顧，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">好讓我們把天國的美好，交棒下去。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">阿們</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>

在基督裏的豐盛與堅固（林前一1-9）

<div class="draft-block draft--p left">2024.4.29</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">Cynthia’s Insights</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">神-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">亙古不變且愛我們的神</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">雖然神的存在有多久</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我沒有確切的感知</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但就聖經歷史的完成點來說</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我可以感知到</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">祂至少愛了我們1600多年</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">人-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">哥林多教會的章節</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">從所講述的時空背景、人文記事，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">很引我入勝，也讓我省思。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">「愛是很久忍耐又有恩慈」</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在這裡我更清楚的感受到，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這愛確實指的是Agape。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在這段章節，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">雖然看到很多的黑暗面，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但卻讓我知道，原來人性的惡，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">千年之前有的，千年之後，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">仍然還在！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">要承認這一點，其實蠻痛苦的</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">（真的很佩服神教化我們那麼久了，人還是會犯錯）！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但卻很有趣，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">也讓我思索其原因。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">以我目前可以理解的是:</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">能不能依照著聖經教導的方式活出神的樣式，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">其實是個很重要的原因。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">那麼，如何能活出神的樣式，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">用祂的觀點去給予agape呢？</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我想持續地靈修以及閱讀聖經，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">是個好方法，而且是個實際的作為。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我很開心，在決定靈修的開端，可以發現這些，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這讓我更有動力去研讀聖經、</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">順服地去寫心得。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">&nbsp;</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我另外也發現，在寫心得的同時，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我得到的領悟更多，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就在心裡開始扎根的感覺!</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">而不再是像以前那樣，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">聽講道聽過就聽過了，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就像悄悄的來</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">又悄悄的走了，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">不帶走一片雲彩般的飄浮著。</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">「凡事我都可行，但不都有益處。凡事我都可行，但無論哪一件，我總不受它的轄制。」</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">&nbsp;</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在我研讀歌林多前書時，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我看到了這個熟悉的經文</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">(以前只知道前半段~)，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但現在卻有不同的感受了。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就好像，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我很愛看美劇，原本是為了增進英文口語能力，但到後面，就變成會熬夜追劇。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我一丁點都沒覺察到，原來我是被美劇轄制了!</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">原本的「有益處」，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">到後面的「轄制」，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這轉變過程，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">想起來真的是後怕。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">當下的有益處，並不代表未來有益處。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">要追求一種長遠的有益處，才是正確的。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">&nbsp;</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">親愛的天父，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝祢，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在這時間的洪流當中，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">仍然地愛著我。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">無數的給予我許多悔改懺悔的機會，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在我已知的生命中，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我實在犯下許多過錯。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">最常見的就是妒忌。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">謝謝祢透過今天的靈修，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我知道即便錯誤滿篇的我仍然受祢agape所庇護著。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">也感謝聖靈，讓我的眼睛睜開，意識到自己的過錯，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">並柔化我的心，讓我願意認錯悔改。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">請祢持續帶領我，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在遭遇試煉的時候，時刻的保全我警醒的心。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">請祢持續地引領我，學習耶穌基督的樣式，來活出聖潔的生命。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">&nbsp;</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">以上禱告，奉主耶穌之名祈求</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">阿們。</div>

哥林多教會的背景與主題

<div class="draft-block draft--p left">2024.4.27</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">Cynthia Insights</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">「因為凡祈求的，就得到；尋找的，就找到；敲門的，就為他開門。」</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我覺得我正在經歷這個！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">因為先生的關係，我們一直都在處理人、組織的領域工作著。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">當然那時候，我們沒有神的帶領，其實不大懂得用agape的方式去帶領怎個組織的發展，甚至可以說，是不明白的。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">所以我常常看到，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我們那時候的組織狀態，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">起伏很大！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在我認識建蒲時，他大約有200人的團體，（先前的光景規模聽說更大），</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">然後可以在一些事情後，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">組織瓦解，然後隔天，又得擦乾眼淚，從新組建。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">從我們認識、孩子出生、到信主前的4年的日子，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">組織的起伏，讓我過了極度緊繃的狀態。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">為了搞懂</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">組織的發展、</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">如何增進會員、</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">組織永續經營，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我還把這些問題帶進了</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我的碩論來做研究。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">所以今天陳老師的開場，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我驚艷！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">原來【生命導向教會增長策略之研究】是以博士論文的方式來研究的！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這讓我會想更專心的研究C3的門訓內容。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就是因為在信主前，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">有這些組織經驗，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">所以在我受洗時，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">其實我是帶著雄心大志的。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我想成為合格的小組長帶領小組⋯⋯</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">然後把這些經驗，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">也帶到先生的組織上運作，希望能幫助事業能夠更穩定一些。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但很可惜在首輪的裝備課程裝，累積了太多的不了解，所以我逃跑了！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">好在天父很憐憫我，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我不斷地祈求，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">天父就因著我的狀態，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">安排合適我學習的方式和地方。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">因為我真的很想帶領小組。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但天父真的是睿智的，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我感受祂的慈愛與保護。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這兩年多來，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我的雄心壯志還在，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我還是想當小組長，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">去把一個小家給帶起來。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在遇到C3的時候，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我才明白，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">兩年多來這不解的等候，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">原來是天父保護，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">原來祂希望我準備好之後再做！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我很感謝建蒲帶我去認識道訓長老，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">那一整個下午的接觸，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我看到他因著聖靈活出的模樣！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">也就因為這樣，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我才加入了C3的學習。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在C3學習滿一週了，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">一開始的兩天，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">真的是在床上彌留的狀態聽的。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">後來開始會提前運用瑣碎的時間，預習經文內容。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">然後，認真的聽講。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">哥林多的議題，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">是個讓我轉變的契機。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝阿爸父的安排！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">謝謝百玲姐妹，在會前會後精闢的分享。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">有聖靈引領的小組原作，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感受真的很不同！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">阿爸父謝謝祢所有的安排</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">耶穌感謝你為我捨身讓我擺脫罪的枷鎖</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">聖靈，謝謝祢的教導與安慰❤️</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">阿們！</div>
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馬太福音7:8

<div class="draft-block draft--p left">2024.4.26</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">Cynthia’s insights </div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">神：</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">Agape</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">不是因為我完美</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">祂才顧念關懷我</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">原來祂愛了我這麼久</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">一直等著我回家</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">「神卻揀選了世上愚拙的，叫有智慧的羞愧；又揀選了世上軟弱的，叫那強壯的羞愧。」</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">「神也揀選了世上卑賤的，被人厭惡的，以及那無有的，為要廢掉那有的。」</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">「使一切有血氣的，在神面前一個也不能自誇。」</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">人：</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我看到保羅</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">即便受侮辱了</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">也要起身捍衛</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">他所傳的福音</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">而且非常有自信</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">他不需要任何的資格證明</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">他累積起來的成功幫助</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">足以做他的口碑、成績</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我：</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">看到了希伯來思想</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">和希臘思想的不同</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這更新了我原本對</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">身體、靈、和神的認知。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">以前我的思想是認為</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">只要操練靈，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">必能讓這個身體狀態、</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">生活的狀態好起來！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但我這樣實作下來的結果通常是：</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在「去」的當下很懷疑自我，我仍然不夠確信，我的靈是不是準備好了！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">常常的變成等著神蹟的出現才要去做，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我感覺到身體的笨重、</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">那種該有的流動卻總是卡卡的。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">從靈修當中，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我看到了另一種的可行性。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就是直接帶著身體、靈去執行agape….</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">That's it, just go ahead and do it.</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝-</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">阿爸父</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">真的好感謝祢這麼地愛我，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">雖然才來C3一個禮拜，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但過去這五天的靈修，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我在內心的軟弱，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">開始轉變！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">謝謝祢，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我有勇氣跟百玲姐妹交通。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這解決了我這兩年來的困惑！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">也讓我發現，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">原來人與人的相處，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">也是一種服事，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">好好的帶領一個人，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">認真的體驗聖愛，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">是那麼的重要。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我要專注的帶著我的身體和靈去服侍人。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我知道我還有軟弱需要克服，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但我現在心裡非常平安，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">因為我再一次的確信</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">阿爸父是我的靠山</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">基督捨身來愛我</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">聖靈會與我同在</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝讚美祢</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">以上禱告</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">奉靠主耶穌之聖名祈求</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">阿們</div>
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《哥林多前後書》縱覽二

<div class="draft-block draft--p left">2024.4.25</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">Cynthia’s insights</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">神—</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">愛我們的神，沒有差別的愛、超越對錯的愛，而且還是「愛到底」的神！</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">人—</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">只要願意悔改，神的慈愛就在那等候著我們。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我—</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">今天我有兩個領悟：</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">1、聽到耶穌為門徒洗腳的寓意，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">頗有感悟，這正好能讓我當個警醒。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">當我在與人為善、愛人時，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我是為著神還是為著自己的面子而做？</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">為著面子的是撐不了太久的，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但為著神而行的，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">總能撇下不適當的情緒。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">2、女人的蓋頭：</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">男人要有男人的樣子、</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">女人要有女人的樣子！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">不該只是在靈裡順服，身體也要順服。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">當我聽到這段時，我第一個想法是：</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這個部分建蒲真該好好的琢磨琢磨！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">那種對立、爭對錯的感覺就快冒出來了！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">察覺到這點後，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">後來我馬上順服了！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">不！這是天父要告訴我的話！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">從19歲後，獨立便是我的日常了。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">所以很自然的習慣，自己思考、自己規劃、自己決定。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">特別是在自決力這點上，我發揮的淋漓盡致🤭</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left"></div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">婚後，我仍是如此，我不覺得有什麼不對！</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">所以，每次把建蒲惹毛了，我都還不認為我自己錯了。</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我總覺得，我做決定的事情內容，你又沒參與，我幹嘛要詢問你呢！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">特別是在自己事業上的安排。</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">Wow～今早，我真的是徹底懺悔了一番！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">信仰第一、家庭第二、事業第三～</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">透過今天的靈修，我重新釐清了生活的優先次序。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我看到了自己該修正的地方、我也看到先生是家庭的頭這個要點！</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">阿爸父，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝讚美祢，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝你所安排的效力，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我可以理解祢的道。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">謝謝祢讓我遇見C3，我喜歡這樣的學習方式。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝祢今日安排的話語，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我感受到祢對我們婚姻的滿滿祝福。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">也謝謝聖靈今天與我同在：過去我的聽到什麼的話語時，常常總是會聯想到別人～對對對，那人真需要改改之類的。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但真的不是這樣的。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">訊息，總是神要對自己說的，而不是別人。</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">阿們</div>
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《哥林多前後書》縱覽一

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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">2024.4.24</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">Cynthia’s insights</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">再次地感受到，尋求神的道路，是一條自我訓練及救贖之路。</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">[父的國就在那裏]</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我把這看成是一個目標，而目前我要做的就是，望著目標前進。</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在這條道路上難免有挫折，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">難免有一些試探，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">難免有一些困難，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">因為這一些的阻礙，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在心裡生起一些不適當的情緒。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">像是感覺不公平、難過、自我貶低、憤恨.......。</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在領受神的話語的當中，</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">原來這些很正常，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">這些是身體的聲音、屬世的聲音。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但若是把它放大，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">那真的就是往地獄走去了。</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我感受到天父要我做的是，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">撇掉這一些，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">走到祂那邊去，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">持續地走到祂那邊去領受祂所賜予的恩典--平安、喜樂、豐盛有餘.....。</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">一年前，公司有個buddybuddy project，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">所以我也被分配到一位印度籍的buddy一起合作~</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">原本我們運作的不錯，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我們互相學習分享彼此的語言及文化及信仰。</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">但從3月份她休假回來後，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我發現，接連著好幾次，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我需要她支持的時候，她拒絕了。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">昨天早上，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">她也臨時取消，我們早約好的約會，我請她來當我學生的model。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">然後在午休的時候，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">立馬發來一句"Cynthia, I need your help."</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">OMG~</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">當下我起了不悅之心。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我超級抗拒，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">一肚子的委屈似乎要爆發了。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">為什麼我需要你幫忙的時候，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">你拒絕我?!</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">而我卻要stand by??</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">正當我這麼想時，突然間，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">"彼此相愛"</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就在我腦海裡響了起來。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">後來，我真的就放下自己不是很舒服的感受，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">回覆她"How can I help you?"</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我真的很感恩，在我受洗之後，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">天父都顧念著我的學習情況，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">默默安排好我所需要的靈糧，</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">讓我去學習、讓我去汲取。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我真的感受到祂對我的因材施教!</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝讚美主~阿們</div>

上行詩縱覽三（詩一三十篇到一三四篇）

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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">Cynthia’s insights </div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">1. 神:</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">透過經文，讓我更加確信，神是看顧我們、愛我們的神。</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">2. 人:</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">「若不是耶和華建造房屋， 建造的人就枉然勞力； 若不是耶和華看守城池， 看守的人就枉然警醒。」</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">因凡事依靠神，信心就會油然而生。憑藉著耶和華的旨意行事，結果必定成就。</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">3. 我:</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">在信主之前，「靠自己」是支持我生命運作的動力，但這讓我常感到孤單、疲累及哭泣！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我依然記得受洗之時的感動— 我發現，原來我可以把所有的勞苦重擔交託給天父！</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">最近，生活有一些小風波，我沒有好好的順服等待，急躁的讓「靠自己」干擾著我。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">結果可想而知，小風波引起了巨大的不安。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">苦了自己，也傷了身邊的人。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我要重新的調整，時常的與天父、耶穌、聖靈溝通。藉由他們的幫助，讓我戰勝屬世的干擾，重新讓自己在靈裡平安。</div>
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<div class="draft-block draft--p left">4. 感恩讚美——</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝建蒲帶我認識道訓長老夫婦，感謝C3，讓我找到靈命增長的方法。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">我相信困難之中，必有恩典。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就像我第一次確診時，讓我深刻知道我需要面對、處理自己的壓力型肥胖、暴飲暴食的問題。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">就像在我財務危機之時，其實不是天父要讓我遭遇這些不堪，而是讓我更加得明白，理財之道。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">困難再也不是困難了，這是一個尋求神的好時機，更是一個訓練自己信心的時刻。</div>
<div class="draft-block draft--p left">感謝讚美主~一直與我們同在~</div>

上行詩縱覽二（詩一二五到詩一二九）

這個房間，是我聖經靈修的心得。讀著聖經來對照自己過往的生命歷程，更新思想。