Eternal flame.

It's been almost 5 months since I last saw him.

I knew at the very first moment when we started dating that our relationship won't last long. but it was not because I don't love him.

It was not about him. I was the problem, I dont know how to be loved.

For the past few years I've been in a very dark place, dealing with past traumas and family issues had worn me out and I can't seem to get my feet. I spent too much time in school and my sleeping pills only made things worse for me.

I was a lost cause.

And then he came, he loved me in a way that no one ever does.

It was the first time in so long that I feel cared and validated, it was nothing like what you get from your friends or family.

But i flinched. I felt like I'll never manage to mesure up, he deserves so much better......