<div class=draft-block draft--p left><br></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left><掙扎> </div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>你在無光的夜裡掙扎</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>伸手不見五指的漆黑</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>四周孤寂無聲</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>靜到你得刻意輕聲呼吸</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>才不會暴露自己對依賴的強烈渴望</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>但心跳聲仍舊出賣了你</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>你在空蕩無人的房間裡</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>燈光全開、音樂大聲播放,假裝</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>這裡很多人</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>假裝永遠不會散場</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>可是每當關燈後的睡前時間</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>都像在反覆提醒</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>心,有個大洞</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>而原本填滿大洞的「依賴感」</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>已被你親手拔除</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>你在浮沉的汪洋裡掙扎</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>過鹹的海水不停親吻你的舌尖</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>每一波浪潮都讓你滅頂</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>求生的本能讓你的雙手持續拍打水面</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>勉強維持呼吸</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>見了浮木,卻因不願再重蹈過往的覆轍</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>寧可繼續溺水,也仍選擇視而不見</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>你撿拾樹枝</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>歪歪斜斜地做了一根浮木</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>真的能撐起負能量過多的自己嗎?</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>你始終不敢使用它</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>卻又忐忑倒數著</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>自己溺斃的時間</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>你最終還是選擇使用自己的浮木</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>扭曲不正、載浮載沉</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>依舊溺水、痛苦掙扎</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>可你還是努力調整自己</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>毫無自律的生活要改善</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>規律運動、飲食正常</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>不求人照顧</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>學習自己依賴自己</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>滿心祈禱</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>求生的本能</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>或許終能讓你克服一切。</div>