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以下故事立基於我本人的英語學習歷程和真實人生回顧。

以下三段中間的空白處只是為了視覺上好閱讀才分開。

I attended a common senior high school from 2007 to 2010. Despite the fact that I had a pack of close friends around me in class, I still felt ineffably alone. The road to acquiring English capabilities had always been like this throughout these three years. By no means did I boast my English abilities, because whole lots of people around the world did better than I. It was just that I took in extremely high expectations from some of my English teachers and myself. Being noticed by the teachers might appear to be spectacular, or at least something to be proud of, but actually, I also took incredibly high responsibilities in each English test, mock exam, competition, and so on.

You ask me why? Such high expectations indicate that I had to always perform well and to go the extra mile for spelling bee contests and English composition competitions throughout the three years. Thus, the only escape from all the stress at that time was simply reading English or Chinese novels. Through reading novels, I could explore wonder lands developed by the authors. I guess diving into reading was the only way out.

I sacrificed my possible fun time for attending school clubs, being in a relationship, and many other possible fun activities during high school. It was not until I attended the university that I eventually enjoyed some of the fun stuff I never tried before. Anyway, I totally understand the difficulties to strike a balance between schoolwork and other issues in life at this phase. If I could go back to the past, I might have patted myself on my shoulder and spent less time being an English nerd, I suppose.