GOT7還是GOT7

上個星期的此刻，我正在看GOT7 2022 FAN CON《Home Coming with IGOT7》，跟數以萬計的全球粉絲們一起，這是時隔2年7個月的完整體演唱會，去不了現場雖感覺可惜，但遠比不上再次見到7人在台上玩鬧的欣慰。

原本預計在2年前要參加的《2019-20 World Tour: Keep Spinning–台北場》，因為一個全世界都無法抽身的的疫情，從可能延期，到最終取消，結果沒能參加GOT7第三次世巡。當時真的後悔自己沒有心一橫參加澳洲場，想說反正會來台灣的嘛……殊不知，這麼多超乎預期的情況持續了這麼長的時間，沒能辦成的6周年FAN CON、宣布不續約前公司的7周年。

這2年多來，我們的生活型態加速改變，被迫習慣隔著網路看著屏幕，習慣遮著臉噴著酒精，生活再也不會回到2年半以前的樣子，我們就是實際體驗歷史劇變的人類。

在現生也經歷極大變化的人的我：在經過跟10年男友分手、住院開刀，還有(終於)離職之後，要打起精神面對這些變化、消化複合混雜的情緒，又在腦海中反覆播放擊中自己的恐懼與悲傷，然後再擦擦眼淚安撫依舊要過日子的自己。

在這樣的日常之中，GOT7不消停的個人活動，不消停地強調GOT7就是GOT7，我在感到心暖的同時，也覺得心疼。因為想要證明自己、想證明GOT7不會消失的心過份強烈，我看見的是他們努力在對抗壟罩在粉絲心中跟自己心中的不安。但也是這樣的決定，讓他們必須跨出原本的世界，打開侷限自己的眼界，才能有所體會、與總是感到痛苦大於快樂的自己和解。

這次GOT7帶著自己的名字回歸，他們好像不再受「idol」這個標籤困擾，他們不只是「idol group」，他們就是GOT7。

經歷疫情世態的變化，經歷人情歲月的消逝，我感到幸運並且幸福的是，GOT7還是GOT7。

I was one of the worldwide IGOT7 watching online GOT7 2022 FAN CON《Home Coming with IGOT7》last Sunday. It was sad that I couldn't be in the same venue with them but still extremely exciting to see them gather as seven performing and messing around on the stage.

Due to the pandemic, the CONCERT《2019-20 World Tour: Keep Spinning–TAIPEI》which was originally supposed to be held on 03/28/2020 that I was about to attend, got postponed and eventually cancelled. It was GOT7's 3rd world tour, I should've gone to Australia for it instead of waiting for them holding the Taipei one. It's frustrating seeing that not only world tour but also 6th Anniversary FAN CON was called off because of the unexpected long-term Covid-19 restriction. Knowing that they didn't renew the contract with the COMPANY at their 7th anniversary was somehow a relief to fans yet the worries remained.

Thanks to tremendous differences between pre/post-pandemic, our daily lifestyles and routines have completely changed for the past 2 years. There had been numerous bans, quarantines which forced people to live a distanced life: work from home, take online class, wear facial masks all the time and sanitizers everywhere. We are living in it as the old day will never be back again.

I've been through several critical moments in my personal life. Having a 10-years-relationship ended, spending almost two weeks in hospital for 2 operations, and finally getting to quit my last job. I was fronted to these complex and mixed feelings of mine, kept reviewing myself and hurting myself by recalling the moments I was feared of and was sorry for. As the days move on as usual, I need to wipe the tears and put myself together for my own good.

During the time, GOT7 never stop being “one of seven” while developing individual’s career with their solo come outs, solo albums and performances, proving that they’re still GOT7. I feel bitter-sweet when I see them try to ease the concerns by working this hard and fight against the anxiety among themselves and the fans by supporting each other. They made the step to explore a wider, bigger world. It’s challenging with all the new hardships, and the payback is worthy from learning what matters the most to them, being free and happy.

They come back as GOT7, and this time they seem no longer bothered by the idol group hashtag since GOT7 is not just a name, it's themselves.

It hasn't been easy to me or likely all of us, however I'm lucky and more than happy to reconfirm the fact that GOT7 is still GOT7.