Spy

She is a spy, well, she was a spy. It was not a safe job but it was well paid. Her father died when she was eight years old. They got into a serious car accident, and and she was the only one who survived. Her mother was a housewife; she would do some handmade dolls and sold them for a living. However, that’s not enough for a family like hers, not to mention she had two sisters. When she realized that killing people may be wrong, she had already killed people for eight years. That is the moment when she was in her junior. She had a little interest in her classmate, Bryce. She would not call it a “crush”, but she would admit that she spent a lot of time on him; spying on him. One day, she got an order of killing Bryce. She felt confused, but she had done this kind of things for so many years. She had already forgotten the questions that she was so eager to ask and the answer she was dying to know. Mission Completed. She always thought that she could not feel any emotion. She did not get happy, lonely, sad, or fear. She knew those feelings but she just could not get it. She had been this way as long as she could remember. After hearing the death of her father, instead of crying, she asked if it was okay to let her have a sandwich because she felt hungry. But this time, this person was different. It is not suggesting that she did not love her father; she did know this person meant something to her. But this time she took away someone’s life who she really felt interested in. At that moment, she felt some parts of her were disappeared. She searched all the information that Bryce had. It turned out he was an evidence of an affair; he was an obstacle to someone to get a big legacy. She always assumed she was working for government and she was killing the bad guys for society. The truth is that the agency is a hit man agency; anyone can hire them to kill anyone. That is how she learned the word “regret”. Escaping from the agency was all she wanted now. She had been tracked down several times but escaped eventually. She tried to avoid speaking to strangers because she wanted to protect her family. The agency believed that she would come to meet her family eventually, so they leaved her family members alive. She did not talk to a stranger since then; she got tracked down before because of that. But things went different this time. That is the moment when she met a woman. She had interest in her. However, meaningless conversation is what she got and is what she could have. She could not resist getting in touch with her although she did not talk to strangers. It is only because she felt lonely, and she would not call it a “crush”.