2024 0426 今日塔羅:慈悲 Compassion
你是嚴格對待自己的人嗎?
你是嚴肅要求他人的人嗎?
你是凡事都認真看待的人嗎?
你是每句話都在心裡牢牢記著的人嗎?
當你沒達到自己設定的目標時,你有什麼感受?第一個冒出來的心情是哪一種?是否會分析失敗的原因?這樣的失敗又讓你如何看待自己?
生自己的氣?
對自己感到失望?
當這麼多的負面情緒與想法在腦袋裡亂竄的時候,是否曾有過一絲絲的溫柔閃過?是否曾有想告訴自己一些體己話,「你做得很棒」,「你已盡了最大的努力」。
慈悲,我們會給予長者,給予弱者,給予父母,給予小孩,給予朋友。
慈悲,我們最常忘記給予自己。
在過去拼命的工作生涯中,當有臨時狀況發生的時候,我常會苛責自己,覺得自己能力太差,思慮粗糙,沒有事先設想好可能會發生的所有情況。
於是,在每次的專案活動結束後,我總是將剛結束的相關資料再翻閱一次,並將下次可注意的事情寫完整。
然後,在電腦資料夾裡預設一個下次類似專案的資料夾,裡面存放著我現在對於未來一年後類似活動的預設計劃草稿。
可能就是因為如此在那幾年裡我的身體每半年崩垮掉一次,每次需長達一週以上的時間才能慢慢恢復。
這幾天的身體和心理狀況,很是糟糕,無法進食,連藥粉或者是藥水,身體都會自主排斥的無法吞嚥,還會因過度抗拒而吐,體力更是無法支撐,只能昏睡。
多年後,我放過自己,離開了那個高壓的工作環境。
之前的嚴重內耗,身體反撲得厲害。
需付出的代價,直到今日仍未還清。
苦不堪言,也只能自己承受。
這真是自作虐,就難活的清爽自在。
看著身邊的朋友們,好多人對自己的要求始終都很高。
小說寫著霸道總裁總是很高、很帥、很冷漠,不管是哪項都是”很”這個最高等級。
現實生活中,在職場上,靠著自己拚到一個位置的人,都是很認真、很賣命、很勞碌,也是哪項都是”很”這個等級。
還會被要求高情商、高度協調、高度配合、高度抗壓、高度耐操。
看著社會上那麼多人拚著命,賣著健康的努力,也沒什麼事發生,自己也會是那個幸運兒吧。
可,誰又能保證誰不會是那個”萬中選一”的呢?
在你的心中,你認為「慈悲」是什麼?
你如何看待「慈悲」?
在悲傷的時刻,還能惦記到別人的好,這是共情,是體貼,也是一種慈悲。
倘若在憤怒之際,怒火要噴天時,突然想到對方過去的貼心和彼此間曾有過的笑容,瞬間冷靜下來了,我覺這是一種對他人和對自己的慈悲。
我覺得若眼前的人是曾經欺侮過你,辜負過你的人,懇求你的協助和放下昔日的糾葛,而你,放下了,也放過了,這不只是慈悲;若用這幾年的網路小說用詞,這是聖母神佛層級的大愛,我自認為做不到。
領航者塔羅對於『慈悲』這張牌是這樣認為的 ~
佛教認為「慈悲」是複合詞,由四無量心的「慈」與「悲」合成,其意義相近。
在網路上看到一位佛教宗師對於「慈悲」的講解,與我內心的以為很是貼近。
基督教
不管是哪一種信仰,或是沒有任何信仰。
我覺「慈悲」,是從小我,小愛出發,懂得愛自己的人,不須提醒,自然能夠覺察到別人的用心和難處,會因理解、體諒而溫柔。
慈悲就如同”善”,像漣漪一圈一圈擴散了出去,永不停歇。
資料來源:金菩提宗師 https://www.jinbodhi.org/79729/
Today's Tarot: Compassion
Are you someone who holds yourself to strict standards?
Are you demanding of others?
Do you take everything seriously?
Do you hold onto every word spoken?
When you don't reach your set goals, how do you feel? What's the first emotion that surfaces? Do you analyze the reasons for failure? How does such failure make you see yourself?
Do you get angry with yourself?
Do you feel disappointed?
Amidst the chaos of so many negative emotions and thoughts swirling in your mind, have you ever felt a hint of tenderness? Have you ever wanted to tell yourself some comforting words like "You did great" or "You've done your best"?
Compassion, we give it to elders, to the weak, to parents, to children, to friends. Compassion, the one we often forget to give to ourselves.
During my years of relentless work, whenever unexpected situations arose, I often blamed myself, feeling inadequate and poorly prepared, failing to anticipate all possible scenarios.
So, after every project, I would review the relevant materials and jot down things to pay attention to next time.
Then, I would create a folder in my computer for similar future projects, storing drafts of plans for activities similar to what I had just finished.
Perhaps because of this, my body collapsed every six months during those years, taking over a week each time to slowly recover.
These past few days, my physical and mental condition has been terrible, unable to eat, unable to swallow even powdered medicine or liquid without my body rejecting it, even vomiting due to excessive resistance, and my strength unable to sustain me, only able to fall into a deep sleep.
Years later, I forgave myself and left that high-pressure work environment.
The severe internal strain from before led to a strong backlash from my body.
The price to pay, still not fully settled until today.
It's unbearable, but I have to endure it myself. It's truly self-inflicted suffering, making it difficult to live comfortably and freely.
Looking at my friends around me, so many of them have high demands on themselves.
Novels depict dominant CEOs as tall, handsome, and aloof, everything being "very" to the highest degree.
In real life, those who rise through the ranks in the workplace through their own efforts are very serious, hardworking, and diligent, also embodying "very" in every aspect.
They are also expected to have high emotional intelligence, high coordination ability, high cooperation, high resistance to pressure, and high endurance.
Seeing so many people in society striving and sacrificing their health without much happening, could I also be one of the lucky ones?
But who can guarantee that one won't be the "one in a million"?
In your heart, what do you think "compassion" is?
How do you view "compassion"?
In moments of sadness, being able to remember the good in others is empathy, thoughtfulness, and also a form of compassion. If in anger, when the flames are about to erupt, suddenly remembering the intimacy of the past and the smiles shared, instantly calming down, I think this is a form of compassion for both others and oneself.
If the person in front of you is someone who has once mistreated you, disappointed you, and now seeks your help and forgiveness, and you, being able to let go and forgive, this is not just compassion; in terms of the internet novels of recent years, this is a level of great love akin to a saint or a deity, something I believe I couldn't achieve.
According to the Navigator Tarot, this card "Compassion" is seen as follows ~
Regardless of the faith, or lack thereof, I believe "compassion" starts from loving oneself and understanding oneself, without needing reminders, naturally able to perceive others' intentions and difficulties, responding with gentleness due to understanding and empathy.
Compassion is like "goodness," spreading out like ripples, never ceasing.
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