Between 2016 and 2018, after breaking up with a lover, I drifted among various islands. Those islands, after leaning close and whispering to one another, relaxing our bodies and sharing good times, we tried to freeze a moment in time with our radiant landscapes. Yet, like a beautiful movie that eventually must end, no one could hold on to anyone as we left through the doors at the end.
I felt like a beast in search of its roots—cautious and elusive. But deep within me, there’s a pond reflecting blue skies and white clouds. It’s a place of comfort, a hidden oasis where I can roll around on the grass, carefree. No one has seen it, and in that pond, I store my boundless, almost daydream-like thoughts.
I call this pond "F"—my beautiful "F."
和情人分手後的2016到2018,漂流於各式各樣的島嶼之間。雖然那些島嶼在貼耳呢喃、鬆弛身軀,相互依偎過上一段好日子之後,彼此都試圖要藉由明媚的景色,讓時間停格凝縮在某一刻。但就像終究會落幕的美好電影,散場的門口誰也沒能留絆住誰。
像是尋根的獸,特別小心又飄忽不定,但心裡有一口映照藍天白雲的池塘,是安適,可以無賴在草地上打滾玩耍的,沒人瞧見過的小小綠洲。在那裡存放著我不著邊際,趨近於白日夢的念想。
我把池塘喚作F,美好的F。