2024 1128 老林：大師 Master
老林，從腦海裡突然閃過你的身影，再想到當初你坐在我對面的情景，我深深為自己年輕時傲嬌的樣子感到羞愧，且需要跟你道歉，須打自我的內心跟你好好地說聲對不起。
那時的你，正值人生低谷，主管是你以前的同學，所以你才有機會進到公司。這是主管跟我說的，那時的我並沒有太多的判斷能力，可我確實也因為這樣而開始用有色眼光看待你。
我們那時的主管對我很不好，是一位天蠍女，對待她不喜歡的人會用言語辱罵，用情緒恐嚇。我是單位裡除她以外的唯一女生，所以很快就發現她跟其他同事說話態度和對待我時是天壤地別。
那時的我才25歲。
即使我想用力反抗也無用，因多國股東結構下，同事們各有各的靠山和派系，唯有我沒有。
你幸福多了，不會做的事情，做不來的事情，有你同學指點一二。
而我做對的事情，她會大聲喝罵我說她要的不是結果，她不爽我沒照她交代的過程去做；但我是照她交代的去做啊，但我又可能為每次的工作交代進行錄音當證據呢。
於是，她欺負我，我就不爽你。
她對我兇，我就不理你。
很多次，你想安慰我，但你說你嘴拙，怕說了我更生氣，你也一直勸我服個軟，就雨過天晴。
人，就是這樣，年輕時，筋Q軟，但腰挺很直，脾氣很硬。有了年紀後，筋變硬，懂得彎腰的重要性，但卻彎不下去了。
總之，離開那裡，我告訴自己，絕對要成為更厲害的自己。
我將那時認識的你們所有全都拋卻忘記，唯有欺壓我的人牢記在心裡。
我的2/3人生過去了，有沒有成為更厲害的自己沒人在意。但，我想起了你，想到了那個傲嬌的自己。但我卻忘記了你的名，只記得你的姓氏。
我在心裡跟你致歉，跟你道歉，說對不起，我請宇宙送給你祝福，也請宇宙傳達我的歉意至你的心中，也許你會突然想到我，閃過我的臉孔，那就是你接收到我的心意。
宇宙送的祝福塔羅牌是：【大師 Master】。
記得你的手藝超好，你曾煮過好幾次美食帶來公司分享，你愛你的家人，疼惜你的老婆，這樣的你，現在應是幸福的，你感恩你的同學給你機會，你嘗過低谷的苦澀，這樣的你，從那之後應都是知足快樂的。
我想，在你擅長且喜歡的領域，你應該早已成為一方大師，很多人跟你學習著。
祝福你 ~ 真心誠意！
希望現在的你，雖然年紀有點老，可擁有專業好手藝的你，跟家人和樂生活，與老婆幸福過日子。
2024.11.28 To Mr. Lin: The Master
Mr. Lin,
Your image suddenly flashed across my mind, and I recalled the scene of you sitting across from me. I feel deeply ashamed of my arrogant attitude in my younger years and feel the need to sincerely apologize to you from the bottom of my heart.
At that time, you were at a low point in your life. Your supervisor was a former classmate, which was why you got the opportunity to join the company. The supervisor shared this with me, and back then, my ability to judge was limited. Unfortunately, I allowed this information to color my perception of you.
Our supervisor wasn’t kind to me. She was a Scorpio woman who used verbal insults and emotional intimidation against those she didn’t like. I was the only woman in the department besides her and quickly noticed the stark difference in how she treated me compared to others.
I was only 25 at the time. Even though I wanted to resist, it was futile. In a company with a multinational shareholder structure, each colleague had their own allies and factions—except me.
You, on the other hand, were more fortunate. When you struggled with tasks, your classmate guided you. Meanwhile, when I completed tasks correctly, I’d still get scolded. She would yell, claiming that while the results were right, she was displeased because I hadn’t followed her specified process. But I had followed her instructions! Yet I couldn’t possibly record every work directive as evidence.
Thus, her bullying of me made me resent you.
Her hostility toward me made me ignore you. Many times, you tried to comfort me, but you admitted you weren’t good with words and worried that speaking up might make me angrier. You often advised me to soften my stance, saying that things would get better if I let it go.
That’s how people are. When we’re young, we’re flexible but stubborn, standing tall and proud with hardened tempers. As we age, our bodies stiffen, but we learn the importance of bending—only to find it harder to do so.
In any case, after leaving that place, I told myself I must become a better version of myself.
I let go of everyone I knew there, except for the ones who oppressed me—I kept them firmly in my memory.
Two-thirds of my life has now passed. Whether or not I’ve become a better person, no one truly cares. But I thought of you and my arrogant younger self. I’ve even forgotten your first name, only remembering your surname.
In my heart, I apologize to you, saying, “I’m sorry.” I ask the universe to send blessings your way and to convey my apology to your heart. Perhaps you’ll suddenly think of me and see my face flash before you—that will be my heartfelt message reaching you.
The blessing sent by the universe through the Tarot card is: [The Master].
I remember your incredible skills. You cooked many delicious meals and shared them with the office. You loved your family and cherished your wife. Someone like you must be living a happy life now. You were grateful to your classmate for the opportunity and had experienced the bitterness of life’s lows. With that, I believe you have since lived a life of contentment and joy.
I imagine that in the field you excel in and love, you’ve already become a master, with many learning from you.
Wishing you all the best—sincerely and wholeheartedly! I hope that now, though older, you continue to enjoy a harmonious life with your family, happiness with your wife, and the fulfillment that comes from your exceptional skills.
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