最近不知不覺再次來到了人生分岔口。面對眼前的抉擇思索多番,既不甘心原地踏步,又懷疑自己沒有足夠的能力掌控自己的人生,怕奮力向前只換來一場空。
英國搖滾樂隊Wolf Alice於2018年推出單曲〈Space & Time〉,歌曲沒有為站在十字路口的我們指出前行的方向,卻至少為無處安放的躁動不安找到了宣洩的出口。澎湃的鼓聲,追趕著自由奔放的電結他,碰撞出一股拒絕安分的情緒衝擊耳膜。只聽主音Ellie Rowsell高聲呼喊著對現狀的茫然、以及被時間強迫推著往前走的窒息感,每字每句無不直擊我內心深處,對未來的惶恐和期待。
Hope my body gets better/ Do I mean my body or my mind?/ Hate the word "forever"/ Hate the word "change"/ I just need time/ Give me time/ Space and time/ Oh, God! I was strange now weren't I?/ I hope that when I look back I will laugh
I feel I’m losing control of my body/ Control of my moods and my decisions and my money/ And…don’t wanna come undone/ And…I’m set to self-destruct
樂隊於官方Instagram發佈歌曲MV時,主音Ellie Rowsell如此介紹道:「Space & Time is about being faced with Life’s obstacles and knowing that at some point, you’ll be looking back on yourself at this moment in time and it won’t be as bad as it feels right now. If you’ve ever witnessed me trying to make a decision you’ll know this is a close issue to my heart lol!(Space & Time是一首關於面臨人生兩難困局的歌,要知道此刻的徬徨或不知所措,在未來的某一天回望,終將變得微不足道。曾經見證我作出重大抉擇的人會知道,我亦常常遇到如此苦惱的時刻!)」
轉念一想,其實這正是認真活著的感覺。勇於為自己的人生負責,總伴隨著挫敗和忐忑不安。希望如樂隊憑歌曲寄語聽眾:Hope that when I look back I will laugh。
歌曲:Space & Time
樂隊:Wolf Alice
作詞:Ellie Rowsell
作曲:Wolf Alice
收錄專輯:Visions of A Life (2017)