Counting time:25mins
Current time: 02:36
This is the secondary second diary which was written today. I changed to library to implement with it. After crossing the first step, it seems not really such difficult as thought imagination. I just need to let it writing diary become a habit, then writing in English it isn’t a big problem to bother anymore, but I still need to amend some basic grammar grammatical concept and adding more vocabularies to my brain to let increase content in article colorfully and article have more color than present revision. It costs me two hours for correcting to revise the brief diary to make it accurate. It shouldn’t an effective way in current situation(= circumstance), because I need to compete with race against time and care about mind my fucking self-demand.
I believe that I can write better articles by English through daily practices, because I feel that I have raised my fundamental grammars and conj, adv, prep, etc. usages after inspecting (= examining) content and checking its fluency and correctness.
Maybe I write rapidly in library because of quiet atmosphere. I can focus on my work without caring others and raising music volume to improve concentration. I just view a good sentence that I want to share with you.
“That is why people unemployed for a long time lose their self-esteem and sense of worth.”
Maybe because I have some reflection about losing self-esteem, and I experience with forgiving myself and forgetting about self-worth. It really a such dark process which is an embarrassing matter. I remembered that I always brought smile and pleasant mind everywhere and got big a dream that I want to drive spaceship to outer space in childhood. (Haha…) I really miss yearn for past bravery instead of current situation. Where is my courage? And What should I purse with nowadays?
Maybe I won’t have answers forever. Maybe I just become nobody that has no any influence.
I wanna turn into an optimistic guy, but I’m totally a pessimistic man in blood. Maybe you have noticed my personality(= individuality). Yes, It’s hard to change characteristic in short period. But I maybe should try attempt much more actual(= practical, realistic) and useful(= pragmatic) implementation to help me improve flawless personality defects. I had used lots of “maybe”, however I should decreased to use such words because it represented unsure(= indecisive) expression particularity that gives people with some thought about non-deterministic feeling.
03:29 peter
To be continued..
Practical cost time: 53 mins
04:14
Inspection:45 mins
