Fourth English Writing Diary

11:52 a.m.Thursday in April 4

　　It’s really hard to insist on personal thought all the time, in the other words, I still need to follow up this world default existing rules in the society. I hate that I’m so useless that administering things are fail all the time. Damn… I almost forget if am I still a dreamer?

　　I read a broadcast in the morning which is related to a workout in live broadcast. There is a familiar man called guan-chang which found chen-gi-s-han gym in nai-who. He taught something innovative about his management philosophy, and some people question about his cheap watch, then he instantly took four billions Taiwan dollars in front of the monitor. He interprets that he doesn’t think that he should use appearance to express his value. Lots of girls in pubs or Wine stores prior hotels want to present him like cars or watches. It seems something ridiculous in my sight (= outlook). But he actually told one point that catched my eyes absolutely that you haved to create your personal value instead of money. Let me reflect about the issue for a long time…

　　yes.. I always want to appeal (= attract) others eyesight gazes, but it doesn’t cause some benefit at last. Just like fiction. It’s all hypocritical. Can’t bring any practical effect and positive influence to self. (Sign..) I hated that I always complained about current statement state. It shows that I can’t maturely take responsibility to tasks even individual life.

　　Why do you still love a girl that she has already forgotten you？

Hmmm...............

　　Maybe... maybe... I hate my weak and undetermined character (=particularity).

To be continued…

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