（11）Meditation

#They all use mechanical translation, and my English is not good.

Leisurely, leisurely on the overpass at Dajia Railway Station, leaning on the railing to watch the sunset, blowing the evening breeze, giving me not only coolness, but also leisure and tranquility. Why is this happening when the pace of people's lives is in a hurryMeditationMeditation?

I thought, because I "don't rush", so I leisurely look down, people come and go, shoulder to shoulder, side by side. On the flyover, I remembered... How long has it been since I've been like this, staring at the sunset, not "paying attention to time", not "rushing for something", just like people need something, and working hard, but will I be happy after getting it? Or maybe people desperately want to be seen, and put together "all the methods" just for "fame and fame", which is like a performance, and when it is boring, it loses the "audience". Looking at the sunset... Looking at the scenery in front of me, I felt calm at that moment, even though there were many sounds below, I still felt a long-lost "rest". I used to complain about myself, I hated myself, I hated myself, but only when my body and mind reached some kind of satisfaction... will stop, everyone is special, no one is not special, this is obviously everyone should know, but... Why do you hate yourself? I don't know how long... Only then did I realize that I didn't have the courage to face it, so I made myself cheap to get praise and rewards from others, and on the contrary, "not satisfied" was not enough, but it was not what I wanted from the beginning. Away from those annoying people, I took a cold shower, and then lit sandalwood and began to meditate... Quiet, I was the only one in this space to rest, and I began to ask myself, posing questions and answering myself, painfully... Happy... Sad... Ridiculous... Perhaps... No one has ever hated me, it's just because of what happened before, and because everyone is different, so... Not necessarily in the encounter,

Maybe forgetting is really the right choice... After all, I have amnesia, and I have lost the picture of being bullied in the country, and the picture of no one willing to help me, so isn't this also "forgetting"? "Abandon the past and look to the future, because the present is still alive" Life is like an intersection, why give it a go?

Because you don't know what's ahead of you, so... A lot of the time, there's no need to think too much Looking for "self", exploring "self", not caring about "others" and "speech", not pursuing fame and greedy for money, isn't true happiness and satisfaction based on "self" to expand?

[Coexistence of body and mind, balance of yin and yang]