國中至大學一年級期間，
我是個怪怪同學。
很多行為模式，我自己也不知道原因。

<div class="lexical__image center"><div class="lexical__imageWrapper"><img src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2F1034bed8-abab-469d-a843-5288110cd25f.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=ZHhodJiThm4QxELhKyGrAnNoNX605dhA0NCaa_ZE2y8" data-src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2F1034bed8-abab-469d-a843-5288110cd25f.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=ZHhodJiThm4QxELhKyGrAnNoNX605dhA0NCaa_ZE2y8" class="lazy" data-original-src="https://images.vocus.cc/1034bed8-abab-469d-a843-5288110cd25f.png" data-lowquality="true" data-width="2133" data-height="1600" data-retry="0" onerror="Number(this.dataset.retry) > 4 ? this.src='/static/default-error-img.svg': (() => {this.src=this.dataset.originalSrc; this.dataset.retry = Number(this.dataset.retry)+1;})()" alt="raw-image"></div><div></div></div><div class="lexical__image center"><div class="lexical__imageWrapper"><img src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2F0a059560-a82a-49e3-8a84-c1b9ef9a503b.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=ShG6hIMJcBARlBzD_9yCZP8gWqbCvtvBVQnWpoaOHEQ" data-src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2F0a059560-a82a-49e3-8a84-c1b9ef9a503b.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=ShG6hIMJcBARlBzD_9yCZP8gWqbCvtvBVQnWpoaOHEQ" class="lazy" data-original-src="https://images.vocus.cc/0a059560-a82a-49e3-8a84-c1b9ef9a503b.png" data-lowquality="true" data-width="2133" data-height="1600" data-retry="0" onerror="Number(this.dataset.retry) > 4 ? this.src='/static/default-error-img.svg': (() => {this.src=this.dataset.originalSrc; this.dataset.retry = Number(this.dataset.retry)+1;})()" alt="raw-image"></div><div></div></div><div class="lexical__image center"><div class="lexical__imageWrapper"><img src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2Fcb904a98-3414-4f92-9066-e30d7e7c8924.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=-uaf12LtFGUvbZYOYlcYB9KEn5nZ6ANzIYrz83zmcJw" data-src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2Fcb904a98-3414-4f92-9066-e30d7e7c8924.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=-uaf12LtFGUvbZYOYlcYB9KEn5nZ6ANzIYrz83zmcJw" class="lazy" data-original-src="https://images.vocus.cc/cb904a98-3414-4f92-9066-e30d7e7c8924.png" data-lowquality="true" data-width="2133" data-height="1600" data-retry="0" onerror="Number(this.dataset.retry) > 4 ? this.src='/static/default-error-img.svg': (() => {this.src=this.dataset.originalSrc; this.dataset.retry = Number(this.dataset.retry)+1;})()" alt="raw-image"></div><div></div></div><div class="lexical__image center"><div class="lexical__imageWrapper"><img src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2F461138fc-03ee-4421-8fd4-8a6f97117888.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=LLSLCJvT-Ys3qaL7YKXwf8Eg3oTc_cQI1ZS9PyroTPY" data-src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2F461138fc-03ee-4421-8fd4-8a6f97117888.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=LLSLCJvT-Ys3qaL7YKXwf8Eg3oTc_cQI1ZS9PyroTPY" class="lazy" data-original-src="https://images.vocus.cc/461138fc-03ee-4421-8fd4-8a6f97117888.png" data-lowquality="true" data-width="2133" data-height="1600" data-retry="0" onerror="Number(this.dataset.retry) > 4 ? this.src='/static/default-error-img.svg': (() => {this.src=this.dataset.originalSrc; this.dataset.retry = Number(this.dataset.retry)+1;})()" alt="raw-image"></div><div></div></div><div class="lexical__image center"><div class="lexical__imageWrapper"><img src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2F2f48bfab-778e-4445-a164-3e7120a36527.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=yB7mnGxwB-ZUiNOL1L1IfXDZ49npB3Y-wrCJOBwfOC4" data-src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2F2f48bfab-778e-4445-a164-3e7120a36527.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=yB7mnGxwB-ZUiNOL1L1IfXDZ49npB3Y-wrCJOBwfOC4" class="lazy" data-original-src="https://images.vocus.cc/2f48bfab-778e-4445-a164-3e7120a36527.png" data-lowquality="true" data-width="2133" data-height="1600" data-retry="0" onerror="Number(this.dataset.retry) > 4 ? this.src='/static/default-error-img.svg': (() => {this.src=this.dataset.originalSrc; this.dataset.retry = Number(this.dataset.retry)+1;})()" alt="raw-image"></div><div></div></div><div class="lexical__image center"><div class="lexical__imageWrapper"><img src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2Fa498525c-900c-46d0-b55f-1c83ff0d9dd5.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=1h9DaK8N0u594a6MVGU2hWbezataQeznRDZu_6uY6R0" data-src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2Fa498525c-900c-46d0-b55f-1c83ff0d9dd5.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=1h9DaK8N0u594a6MVGU2hWbezataQeznRDZu_6uY6R0" class="lazy" data-original-src="https://images.vocus.cc/a498525c-900c-46d0-b55f-1c83ff0d9dd5.png" data-lowquality="true" data-width="2133" data-height="1600" data-retry="0" onerror="Number(this.dataset.retry) > 4 ? this.src='/static/default-error-img.svg': (() => {this.src=this.dataset.originalSrc; this.dataset.retry = Number(this.dataset.retry)+1;})()" alt="raw-image"></div><div></div></div><hr><p class="lexical__paragraph" dir="ltr"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">我沒有用自閉症這個詞，而是在這裡用封閉。</span></p><p class="lexical__paragraph" dir="ltr"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">因為我並不了解自閉症，</span></p><p class="lexical__paragraph" dir="ltr"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">也不知道這算不算是哩。</span></p><p class="lexical__paragraph" dir="ltr"><br></p><p class="lexical__paragraph" dir="ltr"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">成年後，</span></p><p class="lexical__paragraph" dir="ltr"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">醫生們曾經為我確診過許多身心科項目，</span></p><p class="lexical__paragraph" dir="ltr"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">但童年至青少年時代的事情，</span></p><p class="lexical__paragraph" dir="ltr"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">醫生也無法坐時光機回去診斷。</span></p><p class="lexical__paragraph" dir="ltr"><br></p><p class="lexical__paragraph" dir="ltr"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">不過，我個人是覺得，</span></p><p class="lexical__paragraph" dir="ltr"><span style="white-space: pre-wrap;">這些行為更像是PTSD反應（創傷後壓力症候群）</span></p><div class="lexical__image center"><div class="lexical__imageWrapper"><img src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2F604139bf-d5f4-4f70-b301-f1d5e1beeac0.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=TYBcPR1RGOQOQkK40BHg5N82pgG_M3ph3Lgx07QxauE" data-src="https://resize-image.vocus.cc/resize?compression=6&amp;norotation=true&amp;url=https%3A%2F%2Fimages.vocus.cc%2F604139bf-d5f4-4f70-b301-f1d5e1beeac0.png&amp;width=740&amp;sign=TYBcPR1RGOQOQkK40BHg5N82pgG_M3ph3Lgx07QxauE" class="lazy" data-original-src="https://images.vocus.cc/604139bf-d5f4-4f70-b301-f1d5e1beeac0.png" data-lowquality="true" data-width="5000" data-height="2617" data-retry="0" onerror="Number(this.dataset.retry) > 4 ? this.src='/static/default-error-img.svg': (() => {this.src=this.dataset.originalSrc; this.dataset.retry = Number(this.dataset.retry)+1;})()" alt="raw-image"></div><div></div></div><p class="lexical__paragraph" dir="ltr"><br></p>

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