How can I escape from this isolated ennui from the unwillingness of being a misfit ?
How can I leave this cold-hearted place full of bewilderment that only can be described as bittersweet ?
Fear of being awkward, committing mistakes
Again and again
Afraid of being the spotlight, lagging behind on the lane
Can I survive the race
I have tons of words wanting to say, but I have no one to talk to.
Somehow I forgot how to act appropriately, decisively, gracefully, and socializationally
Can you see through my heart flow?
Dare you not realise that I'm working so hard?
I have goals, desires, worries, anticipation
How I hope desperately that I can press fast button forward and see through my future, my life actually, in one minute