wanting, doing, getting, not gaining

I want to become the one who is around the line between black and white

I'm chasing the ultimate goal to live a life that I desperately have this desire

Even though I do not realize and truly know why I'm chasing, what am I doing, and what is the meaning

I'm eager to have something that I don't understand what it is

I'm always in hunger when it comes to obtaining things that everybody crazily strives to run after

Even though I don't know what it is for, what can I do with this

Even though this is something that I don't enjoy at all while seeking to pursue it

However, I still, driven by the inner longing and relatively simple and sheer craving in my mind, try my best and be the hardest

I'm extremely dilligent, rigidly and stoicly fixate on the things that I decide to attain, achieve, clinch, reach, capture, and eventually (hopefully) reap the emolument

Because I just want it

It's not about interest, fond of doing, or any kind of pleasure 

Just because I want to experience it, do it, and get it

And I don't know what is the worth of getting it, what should I do next

I only know that I just want it