《Bandersnatch》│運命雙叉路？命運連回路？（2）

[Stefan] I'm trying again.

[Stefan] I should try again. 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

昨暝 ê 夢，想起來真毋甘。實在講，咱嘛知彼毋是「昨暝 ê 夢」，只是 Stefan 閣一改輪迴轉去 1984年 七月初九 彼工。

1984.07.09 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

伊仝款目睭擘予金、起床洗喙、空腹食藥仔、看著 in tó͘-sàng 出來房間外牽門、父仔囝鬥陣食早頓，共 in 老爸講起媽媽留下 ê 互動式小說《Bandersnatch》，猶有伊改編 tng-leh 設計 ê 電腦 giàn-muh.

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猶毋過這改 in 爸 Peter 無閣再問 Stefan 早頓 boeh 配啥，只是共隔壁 ê la̍h-犬趕予走。尾仔 Stefan 出外坐 bá-suh ，tī 車頂掛耳機收聽“Hold Me Now”，liâm-mi 經過一塊用烏漆噴「No future」ê khăm-páng.

用烏漆噴「No future」ê khăm-páng. 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

“ We've met before ? ”

到遮為止咱攏 lia̍h-chún 劇情無啥變化，毋過等 Stefan 人到位、tī Tuckersoft kah Colin 再一次見面 ê 時……，

[Tucker] The state of him. He's made enough this year to buy a Lamborghini. And he still smokes roll-ups.[Colin clicks the lighter.] 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

Colin 頭犁犁，ná 聽 Tucker 介紹 Stefan 予伊熟似，ná 提 lài-tah 共喙內 teh pok ê 手工薰捲點予 to̍h. 伊攑頭一下看，發覺講伊 kah Stefan 兩个人 tàm 這个時空閣再相會。

[Colin] We've met before ? 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

雖然 Stefan 共應無，毋過 Colin 猶是 teh 憢疑伊 kah Stefan 敢是 bat tī toeh 見面。《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

Colin 隨向 Tucker kah Stefan 兩人展示伊 tng-leh 進行 ê 工課。
" That is what I'm working on. "

[Stefan] Nohzdyve.

Colin 啥 to 猶未解說，Stefan 就已經知影這塊 giàn-muh ê 名叫啥、án-nóa 讀。而且“Nohzdyve”運作有重耽 ê 時陣，Stefan 嘛隨講出原因， 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] Buffer error.
The eyeball sprite's overshot the video memory.

[Colin] How did you know that ? 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] Just did.

保留當時記持 koh 選一改，
敢有影通行向光明 ê 前途？

有看予 chim-chiok--無？雖然看來 Stefan ná-chiōⁿ 有機會轉去到 tng-當時，經歷仝款 ê 代誌、進行 kah 頂遍 sio-siāng ê 對話，毋過事實講，伊 kah Colin 兩人，只不過保留 tī 另外一个時空 ê 記持；這馬所講--ê, kah 當初彼時所講--ê 根本有精差。

Stefan 仝款來展示伊 ê giàn-muh Demo. 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Colin] Don't worship him, he's the Thief of Destiny.

[Stefan] You've read Bandersnatch ? 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Colin] Jerome F. Davies. Visionary.

[Tucker] Isn't he that bloke who went cuckoo and cut his wife's head off ?

[Colin] That is what people tend to focus on, yes.

[Stefan] Which ending did you get ? When you read it.

[Colin] All of them.

Stefan 聽 kah 目頭結結，猶袂赴思考 Colin 所講 ê 意思，joystick 就 koh 予 Tucker 搶去。這改 Stefan 無隨共 joystick 提轉來，顛倒有淡薄仔緊張，ná 向 Tucker 解說伊猶未替《Bandersnatch》編寫另外一爿路徑，ná 共 liù-chhoaⁿ li̍h 起來。

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抑若 Colin 也已經讀過規本《Bandersnatch》原著小說，伊無 koh 共 Stefan chah ê 冊反開，顛倒開始弄手中 ê 細粒彩球。

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[Colin] A lot of divergent realities in that book. It was ahead of its time. In as much as time exists.

Colin 對這款時空轉換 ê 概念，nā-chhiōⁿ 真了解。Stefan mā tio̍h-ài koh 一改面對頭家 Tucker ê 提議，入來辦公室共《Bandersnatch》完成，boeh a̍h m̄？

• ACCEPT？ REFUSE ？

Job Offer Redux 4-R REFUSE

這改系統就決定愛予 Stefan 共人拒絕。

[Stefan] No.

Stefan 去予 ka-kī 驚 tio̍h--ah. 伊毋知影 ka-kī 是 án-nóa 共人應無愛。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] No. I mean, yes, I want to do your game, but I-I just…
I just think I need- I need to…
I need to write it how I know. You know, just me. At home.

[Tucker] At home. On your own ?

[Stefan] Yeah, it's just that it's all in my head, and I think if I let other people in it'll just get, I don't know, stressy ? 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] But I know that I can do it proper justice. The book.
You know, divergent story paths. Parallel realities.

[Colin] I get it. The lad's a craftsman. He's a lone woodsman. I'm the same. 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Colin] - It's like I say, teams are fine for things like action titles, but when it's a concept piece, bit of madness is what you need and that works best when it's one mind.

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[Tucker] Alright, Timothy Leary, we'll debate“The Doors of Perception ”later --

[Colin] That was Huxley not Leary.

In 兩个 tàm 遐答喙鼓講起 Huxley kah Leary 兩位學家，彼是有因端--ê. 猶毋過日後有時間 chiah-koh 詳細解說其中奧妙奇巧 ê 部份。

總講一句，Stefan 猶原 kah 頭家講好共《Bandersnatch》完成，不過伊 boeh 一个人 tiàm 厝激頭殼，向望 tī 期限 9/12 進前共規个 giàn-muh 編寫予好。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

Stefan tòe Colin 兩人對展示 Demo ê 房間行出來轉來到辦公室。Colin 共問講平常時做工課 a̍h-sī 計畫出外，會聽啥款音樂？

[Colin] What you listen to ? To get in to the flow.

[Stefan] Er… Thompson Twins.

[Colin] Get a pen. 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

Stefan 獨身轉來到厝，規个人 tiām-tiām 一句話 to 無講。Tú-hó in 爸 Peter tng-leh 用電烘爐共堅凍 ê 絞肉 thn̄g 予燒，越頭問 hāu-seⁿ 看覓允頭路 ê 情形啥款，Stefan 才共應付兩句仔。毋過 Peter 聽 tio̍h 足歡喜，boeh kah Stefan 握手 ê 時，Stefan 嫌 Peter ê 指頭仔頂面 bak 一寡來路不明 ê 肉幼仔，整個手 liâm-thi-thi.

鏡頭第二改 close up 彼塊薰屎觳仔。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Peter] Well done, mate.[Stefan] You've got mince juice on your hands.《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

Stefan 看 tio̍h in 爸 ê 指甲頂頭，猶有血色 chiâⁿ 明顯 ê 肉幼仔。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

Peter 有 sió-khóa-á ngāi-gio̍h, 緊去共手拭清氣。伊越頭 koh 向 Stefan 問講頭路會 án-nóa 進行，毋過 Stefan 應講會一个人踮厝共 giàn-muh 完成 ê 時，Peter 有淡薄仔質疑 kah 反對。

[Peter] Is that the best way to work on something like this ?

[Stefan] Why wouldn't it be ? 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

I write it here.

自彼日起，Stefan 就開始過這款，一个人 bih tī 房間編寫《Bandersnatch》ê 日子。細粒電視內，主持人 tng-leh 講評 Colin Ritman ê 新作品，對伊最近 ê 表現實在 chiâⁿ 呵咾、真 chàn-thàn.

[woman on TV] Well, the graphics are certainly impressive, Robin, but the big question is, what's it like to play ? 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Robin] Well, the gameplay is just as impressive. I must say, this is a Colin Ritman game, so we'd expect little else, but even by his standards this is really most impressive. It's challenging, there's quite a big learning curve,
so you die a lot and have to try again but I didn't really mind that much.

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[woman] So it sounds great but what's your verdict, Robin ?

Stefan 翻頭轉來做伊 ê 事工。Tī 伊 ê 房間內有兩項 chok 要緊 ê 物件。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

LOOK DOOR, GET KEY 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Robin] Four stars out of five. Colin Ritman does it again.

[woman] So not quite perfect.

Stefan 細漢 ê 時陣，tī 五歲進前 kah 爸仔母仔規家伙仔同齊翕 ê 相片。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Robin] Well, nothing's perfect.

鴨卵較密嘛有縫，
摸心肝走揣必巡 ê 空

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場景換來做心理治療 ê 診所 kah 房間。Tī 遮，咱會 chhiōⁿ 擘鴨卵仝款，一層仔一層共 Stefan ê 心肝擘予開，看內中 ê 卵仁生做 án-nóa, 猶有伊逐工早起食 ê 藥仔藏啥物祕密。

Stefan kah Haynes-先生兩人 tī 專門做心理諮詢 ê 房間，談論伊本身最近 ê 遭遇。《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Haynes] "The actual Colin Ritman," I believe you called him.

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[Stefan] Yeah, exactly. And Mr. Thakur's offering me the chance to work there in their own office alongside Colin.

[Stefan] And I just… I don't know. It was too… 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Haynes] - Too ? 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] - Good to be true. 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] - I said no.

[Haynes] - You said no ?

[Stefan] Well, not to the whole thing, just to working there, being under their control.
I don't know where it came from, I just said no and then had to justify it by saying that I prefer to work alone.

[Stefan] - But I just don't know where the urge to say it came from. 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Haynes] It sounds like you're growing in confidence.
I think it's a good sign.

[Stefan] Well, they're still letting me do the game, so…

[Haynes] Well done, Stefan. That's great. That's great.

“That's great.”Haynes-先生聽 tio̍h Stefan 猶原有機會替 Tuckersoft 設計 giàn-muh，mā chok 替伊歡喜--ê.《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

Stefan 顛倒無 hiah 歡喜，目色暗淡，ná-chhiōⁿ 對 Dr.Haynes 有所懷疑。《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] You sound like my dad.

[Haynes] Oh. 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] Sorry. He gets on my nerves sometimes. Like this… I'm fine now, I don't see why I need to keep coming to these sessions.

It just feels like being… I don't know, monitored. 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Haynes] Perhaps you're feeling intruded upon because of the anniversary looming. It's a difficult time of year for you. We can't underestimate that.
- Would you like to talk about what happened with your mother ?（40）
- It can be helpful to revisit things. Even if you feel you've done this before. You might discover something new.

• YES？ or NO？

Talk About Mum ? 5-L YES

Stefan 向 Haynes 坦白講起五歲彼冬，有一日早時伊 kah 阿母之間發生 ê 代誌。

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[Stefan] I keep thinking about that morning. Reliving it.

雖然較早 bat 講過，góa 會先單純共逐个階段、逐个選項做記錄，毋過 tàm 遮 góa 猶原 siōⁿ-boeh 小停一下，將本身 ê 想法講出喙。

無的確毋是因為咱拄著奇蹟，所致 tī 某乜情境中有才調遇著雙叉路。顛倒是因為咱姑不而將愛 tòe 時間向前，kan-na 孤一條路 kah 方向通好揀，才會翻頭想：「若準彼時（莫）按呢做 tō 好--ah.」。咱已經知影當初時 ê 選擇 tī 這馬造成 ê 發展，抑若另外一條路，因為咱無了解 tùi hia 行--loeh, 會 kiat 啥款後果，才會想像、掠準彼條路 phēng chín koh-khah 美好。

Tō chhan-chhiōⁿ Stefan 越頭看 ka-kī 五歲 ê 代誌，kan-na 會當 siōⁿ tio̍h, 伊較早 chok 愛 mo͘ h 一隻兔仔形 ê 尪仔；Stefan 認定是按呢，毋才 hiah 細漢 tō 造成伊一世人 ê 遺憾 kah 悲劇。《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] Rabbit. It was because of Rabbit.

畫面懸闊比率，ùi 16：9 變做 4：3。Stefan 講起 ka-kī ê 過去。

He was this stupid toy that my mum had made for me when I was born.《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] I used to take him everywhere.
I think Dad thought it was sissy or something.
He and Munlm used to have these rows about it.

Stefan 細漢 ê 時陣，爸仔母定定為 tio̍h 敢 boeh 予伊耍尪仔來冤家。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

彼一暝 Stefan the tī 眠床 tng-leh 睏，聽 tio̍h 爸母 iū-koh 吵家抐宅 ê 對話；伊 tih-boeh 失去 hit-隻心愛 ê 兔仔。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

In 爸 chông 入去 Stefan ê 房間共床板跤 ê 兔仔偷提去。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[dad] By five, he should've stopped playing with dolls.

[Stefan] I know he took rabbit away and hid it somewhere. 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

囡仔時 ê Stefan ùi 睏眠中醒來，一蕊細珠 ê 目睭擘開，將老爸對伊所做 ê 一切攏看在眼內。隔工早起，in 阿母按算 boeh 轉去後頭厝看爸仔母；較早 Stefan 攏會 tòe 媽媽 kah 阿公阿媽見面，猶毋過這改伊四界揣無 hit-隻兔仔。

[Stefan] That morning, Mum was going to visit Granddad and Grandma.《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] - I was supposed to be going with her, but I couldn't find Rabbit anywhere.《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] - And I refused to go without him.

[mum] Come on, Stefan, we're going to be late. Are you coming or not ?《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

Stefan in 阿母問伊 boeh 去揣阿公阿媽 a̍h m̄. In tih-beh 袂赴--ah.

• NO

Go with Mum ? 6-NO

Stefan 著急 boeh 共 hit-隻兔仔揣倒轉來，毋願 tòe 阿母做伙行。

這个時陣阿爸入來房間共阿母講 chín 車幫 tih-boeh 趕袂赴--ah.In 若-boeh 行，著 koh 愛等後一幫火車。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[dad] Come on. You'll have to catch the 8:45, now.

阿母聽著，姑不而將放 Stefan 一个 tī 房間，ka-kī chòe 伊去。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

Stefan 看阿母孤單一个離開家門 ê 形影，永遠共這幕 khǹg tī 心肝底。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] So I held her up. 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

畫面懸闊比率，ùi 4：3 變轉來 16：9。

[Stefan] - Because of me she had to catch a later train. Because of me.

Stefan 對當初時 ê 選擇感覺真後悔，伊共 ka-kī 深深來責備，kúi-lo̍h 年了後，猶原無法度將這樣 ê 怨恨共放予袂記。Haynes 聽伊講心事講 soah, 緊來共安慰。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Haynes] Stefan, how old were you when this happened ?

[Haynes] - Five. You were five years old. And you couldn't have known.《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Haynes] - Stefan. You couldn't have known.

十四冬前 Stefan kah Peter in 兩爸仔囝 mā sī 仝款 án-ne 坐 teh 膨椅頂懸看電視。不而過當初時電視當中 teh 播送--ê, 是 in 阿母坐 ê 車幫去拄著敗馬 ê 新聞。《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[man on TV] The Emergency Services say the 8:45 train derailed at high speed outside Queenstown Road Station.

[man on TV] - As the death toll continues to rise, transport police have opened an inquiry, but the cause is not yet clear.《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

Stefan 囡仔時 hàng-leng hàng-leng ê 面去予電視 chhiō kah 光光光。毋過阿母意外過往 ê 消息，soah 害伊袂輸好天罩烏雲。《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

Peter 也有男性 ê 目屎，伊含 tī-leh kho͘ -kîⁿ, 對某囝 chiâⁿ 毋甘。 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

[Stefan] I fucking hate him for it.

Stefan 毋但怨恨 ka-kī 細漢時使性地無愛 tòe 阿母行，才會害阿母 iân-chhiân tio̍h 起行 ê 時間，坐起--lì 會敗-lián ê 車幫；伊嘛怨恨老爸共伊 ê 兔仔藏起來，害伊毋願出門去拖 tio̍h 老母 ê 跤步。

Tō chhan-chhiūⁿ tong-chhoe-sî Colin 講伊共《Bandersnatch》所有 ê 結局攏看過一擺；Haynes 先生 mā 向 Stefan 苦勸講，咱無法度由在 ka-kī 選 boeh 行 ê 路。無論 ùi 佗位去，boeh a̍h m̄--無，咱攏無才調重新選擇、用先見改變一切，kan-na 愛學 ē-hiáng 接受鞋仔底跤踏過 ê 路。

[Haynes] The past is immutable, Stefan. No matter how painful it is, we can't change things, we can't choose differently, with hindsight.

We'll have to learn to accept that.

[Haynes] Remember, any time you need me, just pick up the phone. You know the number. 《Bandersnatch》（Netflix, 2018）

Haynes 愛 Stefan 謹記，kiàn-nā 伊 siūⁿ-boeh kah 先生見面，隨時攏通用「彼支電話號碼」敲來到診所相揣。Stefan tìm-thâu, 離開診斷 ê 房間，繼續 tàm 伊 ê khâm-khia̍t 之路，四界踅……。