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4 Sep 2021

Today has been a perfect perfect day with magic. 　　　　　　　　　　　Yesterday S said that we will make a trip today. I want to make you happy (at least) once. We had a nice sex in the morning, nicely before he took a shower. The weather was nice and sunny. We passed by a vaccination bus, and I filled out a form with S helped to translate it and got first biontech shot! Lucky me!

We had a nice lunch which I would say cheap in Germany, that it was bowl with rice, roasted chicken, vegetables, peanut sauce and pomegranate seeds, which was yummy and in good portion.

Then later we walked quite a lot in the city with Savas. He is nice and easy to talk with, a very cheerful guy. Beer garden by Neckar river. People on the river watching. 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　Nice salad as dinner. 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　A lot of talking. 　　

After talking a photo S held me on my shoulder, everything was too perfect not to kiss him.

Gosh I love the day visiting new place and had a lot talking with friend and people. Second nice sex because S drank 2 large beer today. 　　The next morning I asked that if he is being protective not let others see my figure with the red dress, he said he is being protective me from getting stolen.

6 Oct 20

陪伴力量好大，感動。 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　跟S聊夢又住院，他說：I am sorry for that. 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　我說：Me too.

上樓後我問：how do you feel about your depression that I am here? 　　S: My depression? 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　(Me: Before I came here, there's period of time you mentioned you didn't feel well.) It's so much better now when you are here, even we didn't have too many interactions, but just knowing you are here/ having you being here makes so much difference.

So touched. 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　Me: even when you are lazy to do things with me? Like going out. 　　S: Yeah I am sorry, for this particular time. I don't think it's anything to do with you. I just don't find the reason to go out.

不要是聖母情節，不是存在感、效能感，S 的生命力很強韌，我很感動。