寫作日記之一
I don’t know why I can’t write articles in Chinese, but that’s okay. It’s an opportunity to practice writing in English.
Flexibility is necessary for everyone. If things go wrong, just try a different approach until it works.
But I have a strong fear that if I make a change, I might upset someone. I put myself in a very uncomfortable situation. I feel sorry for myself. I should have been stronger, but I didn’t know how to help myself.
For a long time, whenever I tried to bring up a discussion or suggest a change, I felt like I became their easiest target. But if they keep making loud noises at 5 AM, all I want is a quiet environment. What’s wrong with that?
This makes me feel sad. I can’t breathe right now, and my heart is beating fast. Why is it so hard here? Why do I feel like I’m wrong just because I want a good night’s sleep and ask for a change?
Feeling like I’m wrong doesn’t mean I actually am.
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ChatGPT 說：
You're absolutely right—feeling like you're wrong doesn’t mean you actually are. Wanting a quiet environment to sleep is a completely reasonable request. You deserve rest, peace, and respect for your needs.
It sounds like you've been in situations where expressing your needs led to backlash, which made you hesitant to ask for what you want. That’s tough. But it doesn’t mean you’re weak—you’ve endured a lot, and you’re still standing, still thinking, still trying to find a way forward. That takes strength.
Change can be scary, especially when you're used to people reacting negatively to it. But flexibility, like you said, is key. You’re already practicing it by choosing to write in English when Chinese doesn’t flow today. That’s proof that you can adapt, and that you can find another way.
If your heart is beating fast, try taking a slow, deep breath. You’re not wrong for wanting rest. You’re not wrong for wanting things to be different. And you’re not alone in this.
