Cycle of expression and reception

Sometimes we exhibit our apparently shown mien of our own personality and characteristic a little bit too blatantly

to the point where others feel or assume ourselves "noisome" and "annoying"

But we don't want that

So we act overtly in the way that's in close proximity to the average, normal and ordinary, even mediocre state of attitude in order to compensate

Which makes us look even more detestable and abhorrent since we do it badly and, maybe the main reason, unabashedly

That's the cycle( the negative one) of encountering, interacting with others who dislike you at the first sight