<div class=draft--imgNormal draft-block><div><div style=height:640px class=image-block-prerender data-src=https://images.vocus.cc/00533718-b959-4c6a-9621-89cc54199551.jpg data-width=640 data-height=423 data-position=center></div><figcaption class=imageCaption draft-block style=cursor:text;display:block>明還日月,暗還虛空,不汝還者,非汝而誰。 ( https://bbs.mychat.to/sindex.php?t1040822.html )</figcaption></div></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>十二年前</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>曾受邀記錄一本以器官捐贈為主題的書</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>後來</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>因故未能成事</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>當時留下了一篇隨筆</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left><span style=font-weight: bold; >2010/5/7</span></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>前天造訪器官捐贈協會</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>秘書長吳小姐殷勤接待</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>洽談是否有可能</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>將捐受兩方的故事</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>寫下來集結成書</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>她多年前因為哥哥過世</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>成為了捐贈者家屬</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>爾後更是扛下了協會的推展業務</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>到目前為止</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>已經滿六年了</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>從兩點半聊到六點</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>至少有兩百零五分鐘</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>在聽她說話</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>我喝了一大杯水還有咖啡</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>不大的會議桌上擺滿了蛋糕甜點</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>她滔滔不絕的說著自身的故事</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>龐雜會務的的大小瑣事</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>捐贈家屬的心情悲歡</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>這六年當中得到的回饋和省思</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>我的心情一點點往下沉</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>彷彿在聽著一個自認是</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>貪戀明媚風光的異鄉遊子</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>卻不自覺的從口中</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>說出無論如何都急著回家的悖論</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>多麼乖離的旅程啊</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>她千里跋涉</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>想到對面的港口泊岸</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>卻棄船登車回到出發的地方</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>她當然相信器官捐贈這個行為</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>是延續生命的大愛</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>捐贈者家屬不該被譴責</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>被人們以質疑的扭曲眼光看待</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>我卻隱隱然覺得</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>她自從多年前促成了</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>捐出哥哥的器官之後</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>一直自責到現在</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>走不出心中對這個決定的掙扎</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>還有生了根的不捨</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>哥哥走了</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>是不變的現實</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>這與是否摘除了器官毫無牽涉</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>但是</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>她不接受</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>她要哥哥絕處逢生</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>她要以遺愛在人間的方式</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>延續哥哥的生命讓他活下來</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left><span style=font-weight: bold; >春去春來春長在</span></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>她以為</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>為兄長做出這樣無私的決定</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>可以在歷盡多少寒暑之後</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>歲歲年年沐浴在同一片春光</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>花謝了</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>會再開的</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>但是</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>再開的花</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>和原來的</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>是同一朵嗎</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>沒錯</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>捐贈了器官</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>讓生命得以延續</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>讓誰的生命延續呢</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>當然是受贈者啊</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>捐贈者呢</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>走了</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>當然走了</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>捐 或未捐</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>都一樣</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>都走了</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>事實上</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>吳秘書長平日不僅忙於會務</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>終年不絕的分享研討推廣行程之外</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>每天還要撰寫部落格文章</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>以私人的身分撫慰識與不識的家屬</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>部落格的名稱正是[絕處逢生]</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left><span style=font-weight: bold; >絕者 訣矣</span></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left><span style=font-weight: bold; >生者 是後繼的旅人啊</span></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <h2 class=draft-block draft--h2 name=header-e6j0a>明還日月</h2> <h2 class=draft-block draft--h2 name=header-8c0pc>暗還虛空</h2> <h2 class=draft-block draft--h2 name=header-fjfd5>不汝還者</h2> <h2 class=draft-block draft--h2 name=header-15si0>非汝而誰</h2> <h2 class=draft-block draft--h2 name=header-8oo9j></h2> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>自詡個性好強的她</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>泰然自若地說著近乎機械式</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>像是在資料庫調閱出來的往事</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>平素在全省各校園 團契 公司 受刑人獄所</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>官方 非官方 正式 非正式 種種場合</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>千百次的複習著自己當初做出決定的歷程</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>將時間縫合的傷口一次又一次打開來</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>掏心掏肺的痛</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>總在最不經意的時刻撲襲而來</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>淚水永遠在未設防的堤線潰絕</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>「好奇怪</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>欸 我竟然就大哭了」</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>當這樣類似的話</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>第三次冒出她的口中</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>我忍不住向她確認</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>「所以…吳姐 你很愛哭囉」</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>這是前天下午唯一的片刻</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>她需要些許時間整理思緒</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>「嗯…好像是喔」</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>雖然想了一會兒</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>但是毫不驚訝</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>我看見一位奇特的旅人</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>她絕不變更路線</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>只是修正著地圖的座標方向</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left></div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>天有好生之德</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>器官捐贈當然是推己及人的好事</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>但是對捐贈者家屬而言</div> <div class=draft-block draft--p left>究竟是延續了愛 還是痛呢</div>