顛簸晃搖，原來都是自找？

May my turbulent times pass sooner

And all the volatile schedule of my times spending on dealing with my anxiety about being afraid of losing something

Even though I'm not assertive about what is the 'something'

Even though I don't know, I'm not daring to know what would possibly happen, what I would feel, what I should feel in the near future if I really lose 'something'

I just want to catch something whose meaning or worth of having it is obscure and vague for me

I don't know the ultimate 'why' I have to reach these

But I just somehow possess the extremely strong eager and desire to get whatever I, at the moment, want, even though it is just some tiny little trifles

Really when I truly get that, or climb to the state that I 'want'

I don't feel anything expect for the momentary happiness of finally get it

I don't know what the goal is, or what I am going to do next

Perhaps I didn't even have a goal in mind starting this game, the 'dream' chasing game