“Dear Father, I’m tired of feeling everything in this world. you must know why I feel bad about it. I’m not happy with my life, I just complained about too many things that I’ve been through. But I really need a word, a message, or a way that you give it to me. I need you to guide me to bright one..... Just gives me some messages to prove that I really exist in this world. Now I just take a book written by Emily Dickinson, please just give me one point. I‘m begging for this moment, Father. I love you, in your name, amen.”