Until you can reorganize your physical life, the beings in your life, the auric world that you live in, then everything is just being reinforced. Reinforcement all the time, the same old stuff over and over again. With the same reasons, re-rehashed and the same stuff. And you don't get to go to the party. You don't get to enjoy the beauty of what it is to be a projector. I don't know a lot of projectors that are in that place because you have to go through certain processes.
Number 1 you need a seven year deconditioning process. That’s what Human Design is all about. You entered Human Design and started following strategy and authority. It takes seven years cellularly, it takes seven years to change the basic mechanism, so that you get rid of the conditioned memories that are being held in the cell. So already you are dealing with time. It takes Time these things.
Projectors are very slow in the way in which they develop their journey in human design. I watched it for so long and it is because it takes momentum until they begin to see recognition upon recognition as you begin to see that world around you, those beings around you, the way in which they operate. You begin to recognize the inherent truth in that. You get closer and closer, to seeing what is possible for you.
But you see until you are really surrendered and surrender is just strategy and authority. There isn’t anything else. Surrender is about allowing yourself to be freed from your mind's control of your decision-making. I've already described you because of the nature of your recognizing function.
Your mind, your mind is a minefield. Your mind is the place where all the trouble is. We always have this duality with everything in our nature and mentally this is a fundamental duality. Your mind on one side is the great horror show that's going to just drive you crazy and the mind on the other side can be a very beautiful thing. You have to see that as long as your mind is involved in your decision-making process, that your mind is moving you, that your mind is driving you, that your mind is pointing at you, you're in trouble. Because that's not the way it works. It doesn't.
Mind does one thing really well. It measures, it measures. It doesn't really know whether this thing over here as opposed to that thing over there, is really the better of the two. It just measures. It says this thing over here is over there and this thing there is over here. That's it.
But of course we have pressure on our minds as not-self that our minds are going to run our lives. Because that's the way we were raised and that's the way we were conditioned. So you force your mind to make a choice.
You say to your mind “well is it going to be this or is it going to be that?” I've got a great story - a guy wakes up one morning, and his mind says to him we need to change. We need to change. Let's sell everything we have, quit our job and go to Las Vegas and put all that money at the roulette table on 18 black. Guy wakes up the next morning his mind telling of the same thing. Come on let's do it, we need to change our lives. I know this is going to work, this is really going to be terrific. I know that, I’m your mind, listen to me. This is really good work. Let's do all of that. Of course eventually he sells everything, he quits his job, he goes to Las Vegas, he goes to the roulette table. He takes all his money. He puts it on 18 black. It comes up 14 red. his mind says “shit!” Cause this is what the mind does and then the mind says: “well okay! Let's do this now. Everybody in their life knows this. Your mind telling you to do something, you do the whole damn thing, blows up, it's not like your mind does a mea culpa! “Oh I'm so sorry! I blew that one. I don't know how. I got that one wrong. Punish me. No it's Hey! next one! I got this one on my list. Let's try this thing over here. That strikes back. Let's see if it works.” This is mind. And you have all these human beings “oh yeah, I really trust my mind.” Mind doesn’t know…
It is why in human design you have a strategy and authority to avoid the mind making decisions. Where your mind is a delight, is outer authority! You’re a projector, you’re here to guide. Use all that measuring as outer authority for the other, for your three generators. Larry, Curly and Moe, you tell them to do their thing. “You do this, you do that, you do that.” That's what you're really good at. You get it all out. But not inside, this does not work. Your mind is not going to find the answer for you. Will never find the answer for you.
And of course, because you're so good at making up reasons, I mean think about what that's like if your emotional and you're a projector. You’re emotional and you’re a projector and you wake up in the morning and you're down in your wave. You have some of the most incredible reasoning that will go with that. “I'm down in my wave because…” and you got more because’s and more reasons than anybody else. You could ultimately blame the entire universe for your mood.
The same thing if your projector in your individual. You wake up in the morning and you're melancholic. And you're going “I'm sad because of you.” The insanity of making up reasons for chemistry, for mechanics, it’s just mechanics after all. Then people waking up in the morning down in their wave. They don't think mechanics. They think somebody did this to me and they come up with all the reasons and of course if you’re a projector you're open to you take those beings in very deeply. It becomes a whole endless attachment and blame game: Let go of that stuff, it’s never going to live what’s you.
It's not in the reason making for yourself. It's not about your mind being clever enough to guide you. And then you put yourself into a way of life that honors what you are, you're not here to suffer after all. I mean you know you coming onto this plane and the God said you don't have to work. That's not suffering. If you know how to get there. You know we all have these beautiful things that are possible for us of the way in which we can fulfill our potential to be a projector. This is something that is really a gift.
But to realize that gift, you have to do with conditioning. You have to be able to see it, you have to be able to recognize it, you have to be able to accept it. Otherwise you can’t transcend it. Otherwise you can't turn that conditioning into wisdom. When you look at your chart those things that are colored in, that's the student. Those things that are white, all those gates channels, centers that are open this is where you go to school in life. And this where you can become wise and what can destroy you. As a projector you need to neutralize all those white places. You need to see them for what they are. And put them each in their part in the proper place. And then and then you can really make a difference in your life.