我很常形容自己在離職後所經歷的心路歷程，就像是走進一條看不見出口的山洞。
尤其是當已經走了好長一段路、全身沒入黑暗之時，這時所面對的就是全然的未知。
在全然的未知之中，所有曾建立起的已知概念都一一剝落，只存一己赤裸之身在黑暗中無所遁形。
於是，你開始懷疑起自身的存在、重新思考關於生命的意義。
你當然會想回頭，或者就甘願止步於偶遇的微弱螢火蟲之光；自我說服前方的道路也只是死路一條。
但如果你選擇繼續走，就要學著接納未知，並且放棄所有控制的意圖，臣服。
「就某種意義而言，覺知到你什麼都不能做，就是你所能擁有的最重要領悟。」
——《覺醒之後》，Adyashanti
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有趣的是，當我終於意識到自己什麼也不是、不再試圖攀附新的自我認同時，反而感受到了一種嶄新的自由。
於是我停止了追尋，發現真的要做什麼都可以。
然後路反而自己出現了。
出口的光已經從遠處，尚且細微，但穩定地，迎面透射而來。
I often describe the journey I went through after leaving my job as stepping into a cave with no visible exit.
Especially when you’ve already walked a long way and your entire body is swallowed by darkness, what you face is complete uncertainty.
In this total unknown, all the known concepts you once built up gradually fall away, leaving only your bare self, exposed and inescapable in the dark.
Then, you begin to doubt your own existence and rethink the meaning of life.
Of course, you might want to turn back, or be content to stop at the faint light of fireflies you happen upon, convincing yourself that the path ahead is just a dead end.
But if you choose to keep moving forward, you must learn to accept the unknown, abandon all attempts at control, and surrender.
Interestingly, when I finally realized that I was nothing and stopped trying to cling to new self-identities, I felt a brand-new sense of freedom.
I stopped searching and discovered that I could truly do anything.
And then, the path itself began to appear.
The light of the exit was already faintly visible from afar, yet steadily, it shone straight toward me.
