I’m not a patient man who can continuously insist on self thought that can’t be influenced by others, even self… I’m often defeated by myself, for example, self-esteem, confidence, endurance, execution ability. “適者生存,不適者淘汰” which cause from the theory of evolution by Darwinism (達爾文). Yes, I still so weak to abide by losing individual value(= merit, worth). Someone always told about some depressing things, and then it will let others think that you’re so weak (= feeble) enough. Please stop to expressing these negative (=) outlook. Absolutely, we often have two criteria, loose standard for us, and the other for others obviously.
I’m afraid that I can’t watch you again, even I almost hasn’t seen you two years. Everything seems like just my one-sided (= unilateral) blind passion.