半年的試用期轉眼就過去了，慢慢也找到了工作的良好狀態和自信感覺。畢竟目前自己是在政府部門上班，專門處理破產和清算的相關業務，日子逐漸清晰，穩固和照舊。
半年前在西澳那家工程公司裡所經歷的種種焦慮，憤恨和抑鬱都煙消雲散了。偶爾回頭看自己過去所記下的日誌，唏噓不已，同時，也倍加珍惜目前的公職崗位，雖然這份職位是來得及其的容易，卻要種種地珍惜。
人有時是極其奇怪和難以理解。當一切都穩定和規矩下來後，我又開始瞎琢磨起來了。坦誠講，政府工的確是穩定，但是，無可否認的是，作為一個小小職員，日復一日，年復一年地重複同樣的工作，極其地枯燥，機械，呆板。
我的那顆小小的玻璃心，蠢蠢欲動，時時難以按捺，渴望新的刺激，新的活動，新的探尋和新的互動。
部門經理經常給我們宣揚，在政府工作的好處，鼓勵我們申請在家辦公，身體稍有一適，就要馬上停止工作，請假回家休息。鼓勵我們申請高級的崗位，還答應親自幫助給修改簡歷。或者申請去別的政府部門，換換口味。又或者改為part time，去照顧家庭或做別的事情。
我倒是沒有想在政府部門內部去折騰的意願，不過，我還真想只做part time，然後去做另外一份工。
最近開始克服懶惰情緒，大力投入練習氣功，尤其是週末。
每次練完半個小時的氣功後，我都浮想聯翩。
咱這一通身的本領，怎麼用氣功來安邦立國，用之於民。
在外散步或坐公交，常常看到一些肥胖人士，那雙腿比大象腿還粗壯，走起路來，慢騰騰如挪窩，看在眼裡，都令我替他乾著急，恨不得三步並作兩步，跑上前去，推他一把，然後找他促膝談心，苦口婆心，勸他跟了我，早早地去一起練氣功。哈哈，一同去，一同去。
我要立志，開個氣功理療工作室，把全澳洲的陪胖人士都招收門下，一個一個去把他們變成跟我一個廋小身材，同時將我們的國寶氣功功效在澳洲發揚光大。此乃本人平生志願，若能實現，死而無憾。
The six-month probation period has flown by in the blink of an eye. Little by little, I have found a good rhythm and regained my confidence at work. After all, I am currently employed in a government department, specifically handling bankruptcy and liquidation matters. Life is gradually becoming clearer, more stable, and back to a steady routine.
The anxiety, resentment, and depression I experienced at that engineering company in Western Australia six months ago have all vanished. Occasionally, when I look back at the journal entries I wrote during that time, I can't help but feel emotional. At the same time, I have learned to treasure my current public sector job even more. Although it came to me rather easily, I know it is something to be cherished.
People can be quite strange and hard to understand sometimes. Once everything has settled into order and stability, I start to overthink again.
To be honest, working in government is indeed stable, but there's no denying that as a small employee, doing the same tasks day after day, year after year, can become extremely dull, mechanical, and rigid.
My fragile little heart often stirs with restlessness, yearning for new excitement, new activities, new explorations, and new interactions.
Our department manager often promotes the benefits of working for the government, encouraging us to apply for remote work, and if we feel even slightly unwell, we are urged to immediately stop working, take leave, and rest at home. We are encouraged to apply for higher positions, with promises of personal help revising our résumés. Or even to transfer to other government departments to try something different. There's also the suggestion of switching to part-time work to better take care of family or pursue other interests.
Personally, I don't have much desire to toss myself about within the government system. However, I am genuinely interested in switching to part-time so that I can take on another job.
Lately, I've been working hard to overcome laziness and have devoted myself to practicing qigong, especially on weekends.
Every time I finish a half-hour session of qigong, my mind races with ideas.
With all the skills I possess, how could I use qigong to bring peace and prosperity to the country, to serve the people?
While out walking or riding the bus, I often see people struggling with obesity—their legs even thicker than elephant legs, shuffling slowly along. Watching them fills me with anxious impatience; I want to rush over, push them forward, sit down with them heart-to-heart, and earnestly persuade them to join me in practicing qigong as soon as possible. Haha, together, together!
I have made up my mind: I want to open a qigong therapy studio, recruiting overweight people from all across Australia, helping each of them transform into someone as lean and fit as me. At the same time, I hope to promote the marvelous effects of our national treasure, qigong, across Australia.
This is my lifelong aspiration. If I could accomplish it, I would have no regrets, even in death.
