這次視訊會議是繼上次西班牙出差四週後我再次和Y同框。鏡頭前的他穿著紅色上衣，外頭套著公司的黑色branded zip up。紅色不是他的顏色，他看起來有點彆扭，看起來很工程師。
投射褪去之後，他身上的每個層面都愈來愈像工程師，那份有點尷尬的窘迫感、穿衣風格，那種不太會聊天、一板一眼的語氣。我想起我們第一次在Krakow散步的那50分鐘，他冷不防問我：「妳喜歡吃什麼？」
當下的我驚愕不已：這是什麼小學生問題？你不是應該問我人生追求之類的嗎？
那時的我對他充滿靈性投射，以為他只是活在靈魂層太久，一時切不回人間頻道，才會問出如此基本的問題。但現在回想 ，那可能真的就只是工程師的不擅言辭，努力想找話題跟我聊天。
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那場會議J也在，一邊開會一邊和我Slack聊天。他提到Y身為頂頭主管，很難被說服。
“跟Y工作容易嗎？他總是感覺人很好，可實際合作我就不知道了。”我問。
「我只能說，他實在太不chill了，真的很難跟他開玩笑😅」射手座的J如此回答。我嘴角失守，立刻把螢幕關掉以免被其他人發現。
他們兩人是宇宙能量的兩極啊。J的活力、健談和創意滿點，跟我的語言頻率一拍即合；但同時Y的天蠍深度、內縮和靜默能量，我亦全然熟悉。這兩種能量同時坐在同一個虛擬會議室裡，我看著他們、看著的彷彿不是兩個人，而是在我生命不同階段裡曾深刻交會過的兩種能量原形。如今竟在同一時間，同時出現在我的生命裡。
How does the universe make a full circle like this?
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“When Water and Fire In The Same Room”
This video call was the first time Y and I appeared on screen together again since the business trip four weeks ago to Spain. On camera, he was wearing a red top layered with the company’s black branded zip-up. Red isn’t his color - it looked a bit awkward on him, almost making him look extra like an engineer.
As the projection faded, every layer of him seemed increasingly engineer-like: that slight social discomfort, the fashion sense, the stiff tone of someone not quite fluent in small talk. I was reminded of the 50-minute walk we once took in Krakow, when he suddenly asked me, “So… what do you like to eat?”
I was stunned. What kind of elementary-school question is this? Aren’t you supposed to ask me about my life purpose or something?
Back then, I projected a certain spirituality onto him. I assumed he’d been dwelling too long on the soul level and temporarily forgot how to speak in the human channel - hence the overly basic question. But looking back now, maybe it really was just an engineer trying very hard to make conversation.
J was in that meeting too, Slack-chatting with me as we worked. He mentioned that Y, being the manager above him, was notoriously hard to persuade.
“Is it easy working with Y? He always seems nice, but I don't know what it’s like in practice,” I asked him.
“All I can say is… he is so not chill. It’s really hard to joke with him 😅,” said Sagittarius J.
I lost control of my smile and immediately turned off my camera so no one would notice.
The two of them are of complete opposite energy. J’s vibrancy, humor, and creativity sync perfectly with my conversational frequency, while I am also all too familiar with Y’s Scorpio-like depth, inwardness, and quiet stillness. Watching them sit together in the same virtual meeting room, it felt like I wasn’t seeing two people, but two archetypes of energies that had profoundly shaped different chapters of my life - now appearing simultaneously, right here, right now.
How does the universe make a full circle like this?
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