擔心自己不夠好 not being good enough

which makes it hard for me to make friends. Even if I manage to make friends, they might end up leaving me.

Then I started to think,

Is getting 80 points on a test considered good enough? Is being helpful to others enough to be considered good?
(Though I might be labeled as nosy = =! ) Or is it all about making a lot of money?

And then, I began pondering, what exactly is a friend?
If someone leaves me just because I'm not outstanding enough, are they truly a "friend"?

If I'm afraid of being laughed at by friends for making mistakes and end up not doing anything, is that the right way to handle it? It's like having more stress after making friends. I'm constantly worried that I might do something silly (like not being great at sweeping or washing dishes) and that drives my friends away.

But then, I came to a conclusion.

I won't worry about not being good enough.

我有點擔心自己不夠好，導致交不到朋友

就算有了朋友，也會離開我

然後又開始思考「好」的定義是什麼？

考80分算好嗎？

樂於助人就是好嗎？(搞不好被嫌雞婆 = =)

還是賺大錢就是好？

然後又開始思考，什麼叫朋友

如果因為我不夠優秀而離開我的朋友

真的算「朋友」嗎？

如果我因為怕做錯事情被朋友笑，然後就不做了

因為交到了朋友反而壓力很大

成天都在想我會不會做了一些蠢事(例如不太會掃地、不太會洗碗)，

導致朋友跑了

後來我得到一個結論

這樣的朋友不要也罷

我不要擔心自己不夠好

我盡力去學習

盡力變強

即可