這是好幾年前的事情了，然而它在我心中留下的回憶卻依然清晰如昨。彷彿透過一扇明淨的玻璃窗，我仍能清楚地看到那段往事的每一個細節，宛如投影般歷歷在目。
或許正是因為這份鮮明的記憶，讓我忍不住想要重新提起
請不要讓無力感，升級成無助感
升級成無助感可能就沒救了 (自己放棄中)
國一的問題拜託國一就解決
Hopelessness
Please don't let frustration
turn into hopelessness.
Once it reaches hopelessness, it’s hard to come back from that (it's basically giving up at that point).
If you're struggling in Grade 7, deal with it in Grade 7.
Don't procrastinate.
Seriously, just don’t.
sigh (´-﹏-`；)
You're in Grade 11 now, and you want your tutor to fix problems from Grade 7?
Can't follow Grade 11 English, can't understand Grade 10 English, say Grade 9 English is too hard, and ask if Grade 8 English can be made even simpler—well, then we have no choice but to start at Grade 7.
Let me sigh one more time:
siiiiiiiigh
siiiiiiiiiiiiiigh
siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh
以下這張照片，很像我當時高二學生的表情
My face probably looks something like this: (×ω×).
Alright, fine!
We'll start from Grade 7.
Just thinking about catching up from Grade 7 to Grade 11 is already making me feel a little stressed.
This progress report is going to be tricky—I just hope the parents can accept it.
"What's your goal, exactly?"
"I just want to pass the small tests at school. Forget about the big exams."
"By ‘small tests,’ do you mean the major quizzes or just the vocabulary ones?" I asked.
"The vocabulary ones. The major quizzes are impossible," he replied with a frown.
"Got it. Anything else you'd like to achieve?" I asked.
"I want to start from Grade 7 and actually understand junior high grammar."
"Alright, here's what I propose based on your current level."
We'll start with Let's Talk in English (Studio Classroom Junior English )+ Junior High Workbook Vol. 1 + High School Core Vocabulary Memorization.
"Does that sound doable?"
"Yeah, that works."
"Do your parents know where you're at right now?"
The student froze for a moment when he heard the question, then slowly began to explain his struggles.
My parents struggle to come to terms with how bad my English is. They think that by Grade 11, I should already be able to keep up with Grade 11 English.
They won't face the fact that
my actual English level is closer to Grade 7.
Ever since I started English classes in Grade 7, I've been zoning out, and it's been the same all the way through high school. My level is honestly just not there.
If my parents could accept how weak my English really is, I would've come here a long time ago instead of wasting time in those big cram schools that don't help at all—just sitting there, bored out of my mind.
I don't go to cram school to daydream on purpose. It's just that I can't understand anything, so zoning out is the only thing I can do.
He said with a sigh.
I sighed too.
sigh
sigh sigh
sigh sigh sigh sigh
The worst cases are when students and parents are totally out of sync about the reality of the situation.
That's a recipe for complaints.
Fine. ⋉(● ∸ ●)⋊
I'm not some miracle cure.
You don't just take a pill and
magically get good at English.
Advice and Encouragement
"I know things have been tough for you, but don't blame your parents. Maybe they're already doing everything they can," I said softly.
"Or could it be that your family just doesn't have many resources?" I asked, hoping to help him see things from a different angle.
"Even if we're short on resources, it doesn't really matter. I could've gone to a vocational school to learn a trade. But they insisted I go to high school, and honestly, it's been such a struggle," he said, pressing his lips together.
"Maybe try looking at it in a more positive light. At least you're here now, and your family is willing to support you. That alone is something to be grateful for—this place isn't cheap, after all," I said, encouraging him to rethink things.
"Maybe you're right. I'll give it a shot and see if I can handle it," he said, a hint of determination returning to his voice.
Thank goodness
But thank goodness, this student is just frustrated and hasn't crossed over into full-blown hopelessness.
If they're willing to learn, I can work with that.
I'm not scared of students who are behind;
I'm scared of students who've given up.
For this one, I think I can help him turn things around.
What a relief！
Epilogue
Not long after, his exam results came out, and he came running to me, practically glowing with excitement.
"I'm awesome—I actually scored 8 !" he shouted.
"I thought I'd just guess all A, miss the minimum standard, and end up with 2 or 3, and a zero for the handwritten part.
But out of 15, I got 8!
For the handwritten part (translation + English composition), I actually scored 13!
Can you believe it? I'm amazing!"
I still remember him buying me a cup of hot oolong milk tea.
"Wow, you even remembered my favorite drink! I'm impressed—you've got a good memory," I said, feeling a bit proud.
Not bad at all.
Maybe this is what makes teaching so fulfilling.
Inner Monologue
Honestly, I don't think scoring 8 is all that impressive, but seeing how excited he was, I couldn't bring myself to burst his bubble.
“I mean, it's not that great,” I almost said, but I bit my tongue.
Maybe the real gift I've given him isn't the grade—it's helping him discover the joy of learning.
不要拖
請不要讓無力感，升級成無助感
升級成無助感可能就沒救了
國一的問題拜託國一就解決
不要拖
拜託不要拖
啊啊啊啊(@_@)
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
你都高二了，才要讓家教老師解決你國一英文？
上高二英文聽不懂，上高一英文聽不懂，上國三英文說太難、上國二英文說可不可以再簡單一點，那我們就只能上國一英文了
請容許我再「啊」一次
啊啊啊啊
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
我的表情好像有點像這樣 ( ×ω× )
好吧！
同學，我們從國一開始學
光想到我們要趕的進度是國一到高二，我就有點小崩潰
這個報告有點難寫，希望他家長能夠接受吧！
「同學，你希望達成什麼目標？」
「我希望學校小考可以及格，段考就算了。」
「你指的小考是指大卷還是那種單字卷？」我說
「單字卷，大卷不可能。」他皺了皺眉頭說道
「好的，那你還希望什麼？」我說
「我希望能從國一開始學，可以懂國中文法。」
「好的，我了解了。根據你的程度，我的課程規劃這樣」
先聽國中雜誌大家說英語+國中講義第一冊+背高中課內單字
「你覺得可以嗎？」
「這樣可以。」
「你的父母知道你的程度嗎？」
學生聽到這個問題，愣了一下。緩緩道來他的困難
以下整理了一下他表達的大意
我的父母始終無法接受。他們一廂情願地認為，身為一名高二學生，我理應掌握高二水準的英文。
他們遲遲不願正視一個殘酷的現實——我的英文實力，其實僅止於國一水平。
自國一下起，我就聽不太懂只能放空，這種放空的惡性循環一路持續到高中，導致我的程度始終原地踏步，毫無起色。
若我的父母能早些接納我英文程度不佳的事實，或許我早就能來到這裡，尋求真正的幫助──而不是消磨時間於那些對我毫無助益的大型補習班，只能百無聊賴地坐在角落，繼續發呆消耗光陰。
其實，我在補習班發呆並不是蓄意地，而是因為我根本聽不懂老師在說什麼。當內容遠超過我的理解範圍時，發呆便成了我唯一的選擇。
他嘆了一口氣
我也嘆了一口氣
唉唉
唉唉唉
唉唉唉唉唉
最煩遇到這種學生跟家長認知差很多的
這樣很容易被客訴
好吧 ⋉(● ∸ ●)⋊
我真的不是仙丹
嗑一顆就成仙?
勸戒
「我知道你很辛苦，但不要怪罪你的父母，或許他們已經竭盡全力。」我緩緩地說道
「或許，是因為家裡的資源有限？」我用了疑問句，試圖引導他用別的角度去審視
「家裡資源不多也沒關係，我當初也可以去唸高職，學一門技術，安身立命。是他們堅持我要唸高中，但我唸高中真的好挫折」他微微抿了抿嘴，話語中夾雜著些許無奈。
「也許，我們可以試著換個心態。至少此刻，你能夠坐在這裡，這本身就是一種幸運。家裡現在也願意支持你，就這點你就該感謝你的父母。畢竟這裡並不便宜。」我用平和地語調說著
「或許吧！」他沉思片刻，點了點頭，
「我試試看吧，看自己能不能學得起來。」他的聲音透露出一絲堅定
慶幸
還好，我這學生還只是在無力感中徘徊，還沒有升級成無助感
還願意學，就好解決
不怕程度爛，就怕他擺爛
這個學生，我可以把他的實力拉起來
還好
還好還好
還好還好還好 (๑•̀ㅁ•́๑)✧
後記
後來，他學測成績出來
很高興地跑過來跟我說
「老師老師，我真是太猛了，居然有8級分耶！
我曾經以為，我就是個啥都不會寫，全部猜A的命。
我以為我會連個底標都沒有，可能就2級分或3級分
然後手寫0分
結果滿分15級分，我居然有8級分！
手寫(翻譯+英文作文)我居然拿了13分耶
天啊！我怎麼這麼厲害！」
還記得他幫我買了一杯
烏龍鮮奶茶 熱的 一分糖
「唉唷！還記得我愛喝什麼，同學你有心了。」我說道
不錯
或許這就是當老師的快樂
哈哈 (≧▽≦)
清月內心小劇場
其實，我覺得考8級分沒有很好，只是平均水平
但是看他那麼興奮的樣子
我也不好意思打擊他
「其實我覺得你考得也還好。」這句話還好我沒有說出口
或許我交給他的最大寶藏不是成績
而是讓他學會學習
教會他規劃，腳踏實地
